The sultry of the sun at 7:00 pm
Turns my hair into a veil and my heart into the untouched lining of the pond
Not quite yet overflown

The thought of being in love at a cabin just overwhelms me with happiness. Just imagining it being summertime running around with wild, curly, messy hair in your bikini with big slouchy shirts as a cover up and dancing and listening to music loudly and sometimes softly and tackling each other in the water and talking late at night and sleeping in the sheets with tan, sunburnt skin and laughing so hard and making lunch and sleeping out, maybe sometimes accidentally and being spontaneous, fun and free and so so happy. Doing anything.

A.m

Your mouth is a glass of apples

I don't owe you my entire self and I don't like how you think my affection is invalid bc of that

In that one word she screamed for twenty minutes

I plan to live the course of my life giving myself to the earth
Investing myself in the pounding of blood
In clenching or contracting of muscles
I will have soft mothering hands and sharp teeth and I will love hard and well
And that's how I'll do it
That's how the earth will have me
And that's how I'll have everything

My ***** hands are shaking
Trying to hand myself to the humans that broke

He said "i knew because the silent parts of me were blatantly audible to you"

scream your heart out with me
Preferably on a cliff above a body of water
But then again anywhere

A.m

I carry myself with my own arms
And walk with my own legs
At almost all times
Today they spoke of someone "coming to get you"
And I don't need someone to come and get me
But I cried

It's so hard to put into words but the loneliness I experience consumes my mind at almost all hours in the day
How do you describe things to people who don't even know your surface
The words I express filter through their minds into things they think they already understand
And I try, oh I try and the words aren't working and all that's left is screaming but not to them to myself alone in my mind where it starts all over again.

Humans have a great misconception that the earth was solely created for them

I just want to be loved right now
Please

I don't know if I have the luxury of crying tears
Maybe that's why they're not there
I'm just here feelings stuck between my inside and my outside and I want to scream
Oh I want to scream
I want someone to know me
I want someone who's words feel like they haven't said them to 25 different people
When my words don't filter through their heads into a language they don't understand

Art
Fingers
Big t-shirts w/ stretched out neck lines
Loud music
Soft music
Oceans
Screams
Dancing
Space
Legs
Screaming
Laughing

A.m

Today I was the most whimsical yet elegant harp of a lady and he was a warm ocean tide crashing in on anything solid 

And we played together whilst I sang choppy bits of the best opera I knew right there on his chest

Written 12/31/13
It just dissolves into me

Written 2/12/13
You know when you feel touched after watching a movie or reading a book or anything that touches you and it's like emotions but not emotions, special emotions are just punching you all around your body and sorta the middle of your stomach feels it the most. A beautiful wrenching feeling like the tightest part of a drenched wash rag getting squeezed to the core
Maybe you don't because I'm finding out that people don't

A.m