I am a real person living a real life and stop cheating yourself out of feeling human feelings and stop manipulating yourself to be the alien you think you are
One who isn't the same
But I'm just as human as the rest and the things I feel matter and I can be whatever I desire to be

I am not invalid

I don't owe you my entire self and I don't like how you think my affection is invalid bc of that

You remind me of the ring of water that forms around a lily pad
Just when the water is still
and free of turbulence
& Melodies that go up
and down but
mostly up
Glaring 7:00 sun that fills your eyes and heart and toes and I see you smiling and I'm **** out of luck by now

I plan to live the course of my life giving myself to the earth
Investing myself in the pounding of blood
In clenching or contracting of muscles
I will have soft mothering hands and sharp teeth and I will love hard and well
And that's how I'll do it
That's how the earth will have me
And that's how I'll have everything

I am pinning my words to the soft  earth
The soft touchable, feelable earth
they deserve that after all this time of wandering
The skulls of the thoughts I think and the words I say are fractured and their spirits go askew
But they are coming, they are here
and they are stepping on the soil in fits of clumsy courage  
They have not felt the ground
They are used to being swept away, & being carried in thin air by false promises that were pretty sometimes

But this is prettier
And someday they will run

Yet you still belong to yourself