My ***** hands are shaking
Trying to hand myself to the humans that broke

In the bathtub on a quiet summer evening, she sat there and he walked in
His heart lit up seeing her
They both said their hellos and some smart *** remarks
She smiled
"Come in with me"
She watched
"You are beautiful"
He sat with her back pressed up against him
Cradling her with his body like a new born baby
Their skin was art together
They laughed and talked with the window opened
They way some couples talk at the kitchen table, and then some
But the window only led to nature
Letting in summer air and the light of the tired sun
"Hey I love you"

I just want to be loved right now
Please

I don't know if I have the luxury of crying tears
Maybe that's why they're not there
I'm just here feelings stuck between my inside and my outside and I want to scream
Oh I want to scream
I want someone to know me
I want someone who's words feel like they haven't said them to 25 different people
When my words don't filter through their heads into a language they don't understand

In that one word she screamed for twenty minutes

In the deepest shade of maroon
The guitar was strumming and smoke was in the still air
The kind of air that only belonged to magnificent summer nights
Everyone was laughing
Passing around a bottle of red wine
Everyone mouths and hearts belonged to everyone
I think you should know that I believe in magic
Long blonde hair was messy in tangles
My Stomach was home to the beautiful knots
Flourished

I love you, I love all of you. But I don't need you, I don't.