no one understands my pain
my heartache my depression i feel
i cant even try to explain it because it wont matter it never means anything to anyone
noone knows what someone else is thinking or feeling so how is it possible for someone to doubt me like this?
but like i said, no one understands

the person who makes me smile when i get a text from him
the person who makes me upset when he doesnt text back, him
Him the person that makes me happy and sad all at once and seperate.

as much as i want to let go of the past i cant
as much as i want to forgive what people did to me i cant
as much as i want to live through the day instead of just barely breathing i cant

you left me speechless
my mind swarming of thoughts
i wanted you out of this world
i wanted to not have the slightest glimpse of you
you have killed my soul but im not sure if you have one
but now i just want to get you out of my mind
but nothing ever works how have you become such a huge part of my life that i hate and love so much

i love your smile i love your laugh
even when i shouldn't
you make me laugh you make me cry
even when i shouldn't
you make me feel like i would rather be dead than to not be with you
so what should i do?
on the outside my face is dry but inside i'm drowning in tears
nothing hurts me more than the thought of you
or seeing you or looking at you
but the distance kills me!
this pain i am feeling, well its you.

As i look at these words all i feel is pain
I tell myself you shouldn't be afraid
but then i think again and realize there's nothing i can do
As i look at at these people all i feel is pain
knowing they don't care about anything in my vains
i know i should be thankful that i have food on my table
but when you have a heart & mind like mine well i guess there"s nothing left to say
if anyone saw the pain in my eyes they"d know what i mean