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 Feb 2013 Allie Johnson
Redshift
my head is pounding
my eyes are sore
yesterday
still fresh on my face...
maybe even the day before
i'm starting to feel like i'm not functioning properly
like i've just become some waif
that haunts you
but only because
you make me
i'd rather just
leave.

honest to god
i'm sick of writing poetry about you
i hate all the ones before this
but you drive me to it
i can't stop.
you do things to me
that make the poetry
spill out.

stop hugging me
stop making me stay up with you
what do you want from me?
am i just a fellow insomniac
to cling to?
why do all the boys i love
make me stay up so late?
why can't i have an afternoon love?
why is it always a 4am
affair?

this puppy grew up too fast
and i hate to say it
but i don't think i like
dogs
after all.

it hurts,
skyler.
stop.
The absence resonated pure and true
the way it swept over you
distance was a state of mind
miles were merely lines
sketched across a map, tracing directions from you to me
ink now filling the gaps were we used to be
lines non-discriminantly cutting towns in half
as we chart and graph
every possible angle to reunite
bicker and fight
over the most plausible neutral ground
eyes feverishly searching a map, with no home found
the absence is my companion, the only constant that remains
fidgeting hands writing your name
again and again
until the ink from this pen
becomes strewn across the lines of latitude and longitude
that originally created the thoughts of you
your hands slowly fade from my memory, the empty sheets engulfing me seem to take your place night after night
the absence turns out the lights
forces these wandering eyes to rest once more
perhaps time was our deficiency, unrelenting the clock runs without pause
as we pick apart the flaws
that chip away at the building blocks of a life's base
I only feel the shortages and absences when I struggle to recall your face
your voice now just an echo, drowned out by the daily clamor
the incessant ticking of a timepiece only silenced with the hammer
breaking the reminders that your lack of presence eats away at me over time
I sit silently in the confines of my own mind
tracing and erasing lines
all leading back to a memory of your face
the absence merely resonates within me, echoing in the empty space...
I wish you'd open your heart as often as you opened your eyes
I wish I saw myself more in them, than in between your thighs
I wish your gasps and sighs
came from invigorating conversation
more than physical elation
I wish your skin didn't feel so **** smooth
I wish my hands would deny themselves of you
I wish my lips weren't going through withdrawal
rushing back whenever yours would call
I wish your kiss didn't make me tremble
I wish I didn't feel my heart disassemble
anytime you'd touch me too
Most of all I wish I didn't want you...
 Feb 2013 Allie Johnson
Andrea
She wants to be shoved up against a wall
then coddled when she says her back hurts.
Slitting her wrists in a lavender bath,
she wants you to bandage her up.
"I want you to hurt me," she'll cry.
And you'll be confused when she plays victim.
When you look into her doe eyes, don't be fooled.
She's a monster.
 Feb 2013 Allie Johnson
Sophia
pure
 Feb 2013 Allie Johnson
Sophia
my skin smells of metal and second hand smoke

books of religion and poetry and fiction line the walls

some lay open on the floor like i do some nights

a naked ******

i am not wedding-dress pure like my father thinks i am

and i waited for you

with all your missing words

always eight letters late

as you were off learning new languages

German, Dutch, Italian

do not speak to me in them

my roots do not match theirs

i lingered just enough

my fingertips graze the places you touched

and memories seeped from the floorboards

the evidence of your presence is fading

i just want to sin again

to finally feel normal
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