i am a liar -
i am a problem -
i am an infliction -
i am a poison -
i serve none but myself.
but listen:
this brings me no pride,
please understand.
this is my destruction,
my sin,
and acknowledgement
is no kin to acceptance.
i can promise no change;
i promise only the desire.
i expect no forgiveness,
though i may seek it -
and i am so sorry
but my web is so tangled
and i haven’t the courage to free you;
but your escape
is yours to make.