Alleeya Leanne Wade: Poems

Feb 2019 · 137

Alleeya Leanne Wade Feb 2019

Time something that cannot be controlled or manipulated but is always taken for granted. There is a time for everything but for everything there is a time. Sooo when os time up

7 years i gave to a person. Dont feel sorry for me. Just read my words and see that life and time is basically running out when you procrastinate on following your dreams, constantly running from finding you and loving yourself.

Well i tolerated someone to come into my life and change the me i saw in that mirror. I am ready to see me again. May have partially wasted seven years waiting for an unworthy,ungrateful, dishonest human being to change while losing myself in the process.

Time such a precious thing yet wasted on deflated promises.

Jun 2015 · 334

A woman knows when to leave

Alleeya Leanne Wade Jun 2015

A woman knows when to leave

No more tears, because you don't care no more. Once you use to worry about every little thing he does but now your like i dont f**cking care. What you use to feel and the feeling you use to embrace and liked in the past has faded away between it, s journey to the future. Time do have a way in the way everything works. Time makes you realize and sometimes regret what you can''t change. Love was once there but i guess....... It has runned its coarse.

Jun 2015 · 389

Dream vs nightmare

Alleeya Leanne Wade Jun 2015

Dream vs nightmare

I use to always dream of a life filled with love, until i met you. Why I lost all hopes of ever wanting a happily ever after. I have seen and compare the person you were before to what you have become today.
I have lost my best friend,the only one i thought would ride for me forever. But forever is just a day away. And i finally realize forever doesn't exist in the future. I have lost all hopes of this relationship. And now i am going to sit back and watchit slowly decay. I have no more energy to fight for someone who doesn't fight for me. Im done.

Jun 2015 · 437

I know

Alleeya Leanne Wade Jun 2015

I know

You dont touch me or show me affection, you don't have to say it. I know. You make simple excuses why you cant give me attention, don't worry i get it.

Dont lie to me just to make me feel better. It feels worse. The hardest thing is to know something but your partner dinies it.

May 2015 · 663

confused

Alleeya Leanne Wade May 2015

confused

cant really decide how to feel. at least now i realize that life isn't really a *** of gold.it is filled with deception, lies, disloyalty, selfishness and jealousy. no one gives a **** about nothing anymore in this day and age.

respect is not there. tears becomes just water from the eyes.
depression becomes just thinking too much about everything.
emotion becomes only mixed feelings .
women becomes mothers before wives.
father prefer to play games and refuse to be a man and raise their kids.
just a little thing called life.

Mar 2015 · 313

what do you expect me to do?

Alleeya Leanne Wade Mar 2015

what do you expect me to do?

you left me alone,you went far away not showing me any kind of indication if you really still love me. i am alone. dont i need somebody to talk to as well and lean on their shoulder in my time of need. i have been battling alone trying to hold everything up until one day i got enough and just gave up.
giving it my all and in return ask for nothing.
all i needed was attention and he only time i got it was when you believe you have a little competition.

i have tried to not only love you but not only you i love myself more.
where were you when i cried alone?
when i nurtured your baby alone?
carried your child for nine months?
Rome in my man wondering and questioning the decisions i have made to be with you. where were you when all i had was you?

Mar 2015 · 458

what im feeling

Alleeya Leanne Wade Mar 2015

what im feeling

no calls or text from you asking me baby how is your day.
never have nothing good or honest to say.
am i fooling myself thinking that you got me. or do you want to have your cake and eat it too.

do you know what it feels like to be in a lonely relationship.
that only you know your in, only you fighting to hold it together, because the other half don't know where to begin.

constantly begging for attention but is running on empty. promises constantly get broken, dreams shatters in front of your face and the splinters sink into your thoughts.

seeing everyone happy to be with their lover except you and then you have to make excuses for them. cry until you run out of tears. think until you run out of things to think. being angry until you forget what you were angry for.

when he doesn't acknowledge your birthday, valentines or important couples events. you are the only one pretending everything is okay , holding up your end and his, fooling yourself.

Oct 2014 · 488

be honest

Alleeya Leanne Wade Oct 2014

be honest

why hate me when you dont know me?
why judge me when you dont own me?
why pretend to be when you know you ARE A FAKE?
I DONT KNOW THE REASON YOU DO THIS BUT I STILL LOVE ME.

Oct 2014 · 352

Betrayal

Alleeya Leanne Wade Oct 2014

Betrayal

Things i have already been through, i am going through over and over again.
Same things i didn't want i am facing again.
I cry and cry but it doesn't mean nothing to you.
but soon you will see what this woman can do.
i sense the difference in your voice, your smell and everything that has to relate to you and the thing that hurt me was the fact that i felt all of this proof, but but now i do.

I tried my best to be all the woman for you.
But you cant be the man for me.
i stay at home and look after our kid plus take on my continuation of my education. i not even have time for myself.
but now i will make time and start living for me.

Sep 2014 · 909

for realzy

Alleeya Leanne Wade Sep 2014

for realzy

I can't really change my life to accommodate people who are jealous. I don't see why I should.

Sep 2014 · 364

all about me!!

Alleeya Leanne Wade Sep 2014

all about me!!

I am smart and intelligent and as beautiful as can be. It does take too long for any one to like me.i walk with my head up and my esteem the same way.i dont give a **** what hating ******* have to say.
I am a black and proud woman to be exact. WIth such poise and elegance and that's a fact.my smile and charisma sharp at the tip.dont you want a taste of this juicy lips.
AS for me i am still happy and doing me.for all those fake family and friends to see.

Sep 2014 · 272

dedicated to chrysy

Alleeya Leanne Wade Sep 2014

dedicated to chrysy

Who are we to say we didnt want you to go? Taking the best… only the good lord know.you wasn't perfect but you were soon to be.greatness in you is what i use to see.

So proud of your achievements and your many awards.seeing you get so far.still brings joy to my heart.god knows why.he knew he had a gift in you. And this is the reason we all loved
you too.You turned every bad situation into a good one.you motivated me to get my education.i still shed some tears in heavy moments but they quickly dissappear when i remember you as i know you.it gives me a sense of relief that your not crying and suffering no more but that you are in a better place looking down on us protecting and guiding us.

It seems so sudden you left without saying good bye.but we both know that goodbye would have been replace with later girl.with a heart and mind like you you could of changed the world.

Although its been hard for us to adjust in loosing a beautiful girl like you especially the way you use to be to people.every time i think about you i feel that absents of your laughter.smiles.jokes and fun times.the way you danced and clown people and surely have a good time.

place
looking down on us protecting and guidelines

Sep 2014 · 543

fake friends(september 24th 2014)

Alleeya Leanne Wade Sep 2014

fake friends(september 24th 2014)

they sit beside you and claim they are your friend.
they promised to stick beside you until the end.
in front of your face they paint this picture of having your back.
but in their minds their in your face ready to attack.

jealousy and hatred is the main factor.
fake friends, fr-enemy, some poetic actor.
distracted by the way you carry your poise.
wanting to be me is most defiantly the right choice.

how stupid they look when they try to friend me.
even though they have no good intentions towards me.

Sep 2014 · 806

haterz have spare times(24th/sep/14)

Alleeya Leanne Wade Sep 2014

haterz have spare times(24th/sep/14)

i walk on the street you see me.
i achieve something, you wanna be me.
i wear something new you wonder how i got it
but the minute i friend your friends you catch a ***** fit

i am original
professional and magnificent.
i walk with my head up no doubt about it.
i am the realest don't you see it.
***** i got more you wanna feel it.

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