never spill guts in a crowded room
and then
never in an empty parlor
this digital storefront
selling beauty for only
the cost of your trip
is a place where i spew
that which provides me clarity
and my peace
embroidered by a new drive
and hemmed by positive flaccid ambition

i erupt here and reflect
touch you and spit on my possessions
drip from high above the keys
from inside where all my hopes and fears reside
to a place much more static

no
this is not spam
this is a particle within a sneeze
where each line is a breath
and each dribblet is a reflection
or passion
or pain

this is no flop house
its a proper crash pad
and im no addict
im a proper user
and she is no harlot
shes a proper accomplice

this place was built for us
and i for you
and the space around us
for each other
for us all

so darling
you and i
we should spread out

wait
define proper

leave it to me to awaken
with guilt and embarrassment
oh ****
what did i write
which words did i fumble
how often did i repeat myself
what did i direct towards my family
what did i withhold from my lover
who did i hurt
when did i stop
why are my pillows wet
can i be forgiven
even by me
maybejustahairofthedog

fixed.

i just had a couple of years on you
but im certain we built to the same place
through vice
through falsehood
toward holding hands
cheek kisses
dirt roads
songs on repeat

weve built to this
gChat and
superstitiously deleting the book

new sheets
and the visit to where our soul
can find a harbor

not yet
not too needy

im not writing anymore
***** my cigarette on the hardwood
pouring out my drink in the bathtub
lay next to a speaker until
well
forget it
sleep and wake up
3am
i dont blame them
write what no one reads

rinse.repeat.

one more time
i can use these keys one more ******* time
one more time
just one more
if im not asleep im writing
if im not writing im dead
if im dead then im wandering
if im wandering im not finding

possibly finding

we should both stop using our language like this
the way that i can turn a phrase can be malicious
the expressions conveyed may harm our constitution
there is no border between negative & positive infinity
our limits are extending between the length of x-axis
without fail we are divided by infinity without separation
its not fair that i heap more on you
and us
between the effort of shoveling it all
and it being dropped
steaming above the plane equal
where out hearts met and our souls touched
and we wept in turns
youre first
no me
no you
and drip and drip and drip and drip