It seems as though the sad people seem the happiest
How they can switch their emotions off and on like a light
It seems as though everything is perfect but yet I'm still unhappy
I have friends family and a roof over my head yet I'm still unhappy
what more could I ask for?
sometimes i may be labeled as selfish what's a comment to a person who doesn't care?
What's a pair of soulful eyes to a person who has  been judged all their life by stares
What's a friend to a person who has only been betrayed  
what's a boyfriend to a person who has only been played
these people aren't friends they are simply strangers filled with impeccable memories that still spin in my head but for you will be destroyed and will be forgotten later
To say I have friends would be absurd what is a family to a person who doesn't need them what is a family to a person who has only been laughed and doubted by them
they say blood is thicker than water but what happens when your friend has been there more than your family why does my family laugh and doubt in me
why does it seem like nobody ***** with me
why are things different they used to be to be so easy
why does life make me so unhappy why do i wanna die but still want you to come with me
I maybe I'm just confused tired of being abused by the whispers that go on in my head it reminds me that I ain't **** and would be a better off dead they say I think you're suicidal I think you she should see a therapist will I think you're annoying and you need to mind your business maybe if My grades are up to what my dad wanted it to be maybe I could find a reason to be happy maybe if my parents didn't treat me like I was a ******* I could find a reason to be happy maybe a people gave me a chance to show the real me not to me that you created and cremated remade it to seem like me im not this ***** people say I am im not this rude ***** people say I am im me

when i fall asleep i dream about you
i dream about false fantasy's that fill my head
i dream about things i wish were true
i dream about a life we could live how much love i would show you
if only dreams were real...
what is a dream?
a series of thoughts, images, and sensations occurring in a person's mind during sleep.
sensations....so that's what i felt when i felt your hands going up my legs
dreaming of your lips touching my lips
why is it that everytime i dream of kissing you it feels so real
everytime i stop kissing you i just want to start kissing you again
i kiss you and i kiss you afraid that any minute that i will wake up from really being with you
sometimes i wish i would sleep forever
maybe if i **** myself i would be in a eternal heaven just me and you

when the first time i seen you my heart skipped a beat
what made you attract me? maybe it was your smile
that smile i can talk about it for days,
when you smiled it was like a glowing candle that can warm the coldest heart
when you smiled everyone in the room got chills turning the room into a winterwonderland.
your smile even a blind person would see, would feel
your smile was a smile that could break a heart...many hearts i was one of them
you looked at me with that smile caressing my heart
it was that smile that fooled me, man that million dollar smile

when the first time i seen you my heart skipped a beat
it was the way you talked, God you had a way with your words
every time you touched me my heart turned black
every time you kissed me you took a peace of me with you
everytime you breathed me you ****** my soul away
was it because i was feeling you? more than you was feeling me?
was it because i wore my heart on my sleeve?
that you would come **** with me one day then leave as you please
i wonder where did i go wrong, how did you fool me, this was your game and i played along!

Now i have to live with the fact that you fooled me