All Together by Yourself

All Together by Yourself Aug 2013

I had a dream last night
Not to clear what it was about
All I know is that I needed help
I waited
Glancing only to see you turn the corner
An unexpected surprize
To see your glitterly blue eyes
We made eye contact
There were smiles and butterflies
I had never worked with you before
Yet, you were the solution
That I was looking for

Sequal to Rewind

Copyright 2013 © J. Barraza

All Together by Yourself Aug 2013

Move to survive

You're lovely and sweet
     Is all they can tell you
Cause you won't move
     You won't leave
When all you can do is
     Shed tears
          Animate your fears

You gotta move to survive
To keep your spirit alive
When you see that look in his eyes.
It's more than obvious
You're putting up a good fight
But he's still not coming home tonight

So you start something new
     but your phone shakes
You list the Five that keep you alive
     Your heart skips a beat
Your blood goes cold
     Your mouth goes dry
Your panic attacks emerges
     Cause your hoping it's not but it is
           It's the guy who left you

You gotta move to survive
To keep your spirit alive
You dread that look in his eyes.
It's more than obvious
You're putting up a good fight
But you won't see him tonight

Ultimaltely it's up to you to decide
      Survive passed those who don't value you
Who spread you thin when you let them in
      To rise above lackless love
But
      You're lovely and sweet
Is all they repeat
      Cause you won't move
You won't leave
       When all you can do is
     Shed tears
          Animate your fears
So dare to move to survive

All Together by Yourself Aug 2013

Late Lunch

I met him today again
For the first time
Laughed and chatted
My eyes I batted
Not for love or for flirt
But just because
Raw and true
Is what I am when I'm with him
A friend from the past
Soon to fly back to New York fast
He has changed in his look and his laughter
He asked about any ever after
I said no
There are no rings to show
Couldn't ask him the same
Tongue was tight with shame
I'll see him again in two days time
Maybe, just maybe
Who knows?
He kissed my head with a lingered hug
For the very first time

All Together by Yourself Aug 2013

Turning the Tables

Work two hard for all the **** that I take
I struggle to much for what I get paid
I sleep on a pill laid up in my room
not wanting the dawn to come into bloom
It's been like this since twenty-four
Can't find or accomplish anything I was looking for
Don't know if there is a god for the tears that have been shed or the suffering bed
Been told i was ugly and better off dead
I am so unhappy with what all that's been rattling in my head
But Nothing's Changable so Stop Wishing they said
I want the life I dreamt of ... Oh?!
They Never said I had to settle for this universe or this curse
But i keep making mistakes, listening to them, and they keep me at my worst
It can be hard with no one to trust but that's a toilers tail in this life full of dust
Shooting for the stars should always be a must
Outlive them in a glory that makes me happy is an absolute must!!

All Together by Yourself Aug 2013

Fighter

Chin up
It's gonna be a long one
But chin up
Untimely you're the strong one
Chin up
You've already won
So chin up
There's no fear in losing
Chin up
For those who can't do it
Chin up
You're the star and they're looking
Chin up
Don't be afraid
Chin up
You're everything in this parade
Chin up
Take hold of all the possibilities
Chin up
Cause I believe in you
Like you do in me
Chin up

Sometimes I am my only positive voice in my head. Let this one be yours. You can do it! How ever minimal or astronomical. I believe in you.

Copyright 2013 © J. Barraza

All Together by Yourself Jul 2013

Frivolous

We had a fight
All because of a plane flight
You ended a friendship because you dropped the ball.
You didn't txt and you didn't call
Blamed it all on me
No you wouldn't take the fault
I am the one who took the fall
So it seemed like I decided to end it all
You're a coward and a cheat
Nothing worth more than the words on this sheet
Something is wrong with you
When money, fame, status, and framing people is all that's important to you
All because of a plane flight
We had a fight No forgiveness in sight
Shame on me for believing in you to pull through
You did good with your preemptive plan
Now this is where we stand
I am glad and happy you didn't txt me back that night for all the pain you put me through
No one is a better person because of you
Your former best friend warned me about you
Now your secret is out She's known you since two
No one is safe if there is a plane flight you're leading them to.

All Together by Yourself Jul 2013

Secret Crush

You're my bright and shiny star
I'll always know where you are
Smiles your best offense
Your laugh is your best defense
Your sass is the one I love
Your sarcasm know's how to make me laugh cause that was what I was thinking of
You're perfect in every single way
I hope that someone will say that about me someday.