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Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
i don't know why, but it really hurt me when you said

"telling you things hasn't been going very well for me"

i wanted to be the person you could tell things to.

but i also wanted to be special to you and feel safe and unique in your arms.

i guess i just realized in that moment that i was just another girl.

but i know better. i know you won't find me again. i know i know i know.
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
if i was as ******* you as i am on myself
i wouldn't be here right now

if i judged you the way i judge myself
i'd be in hell right now

if i let you in
i'm afraid you will let yourself out

if i go
it's safer

if i stay
i'll never know
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
what does it mean?
when is it lost?
does it belong to me or you?
is it ours or no ones?
why does this affirmation feel so rotten?
will i ever fall in love?
will i ever be complete?
what is it going to take?
who do i really hate?
when does your past take over the present?
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
i guess i should have asked
what's important to you.

you probably would have lied and said,
what's important to me, i guess.

i guess, because you leave me no choice

did you take that thing and make it yours?
you know you can't pretend you have that!

it's not something you slip on
it has to be given

i'm guessing you didn't know that
i'm guessing you thought you could pretend you were everything i wanted
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
did you think she was waiting around for you
to save her?

it's funny cause you don't have to do much

it's not a case of trust

maybe she made you lazy, made it too easy

ignored your faults and opened her arms

you rested, why not

but while your cheek was turned she forgot there was a man there

she knows too much to let it go

and the smell isn't the same anymore
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
whatever
i want

i can get
for myself
Aliya Josephine Feb 2013
insecurity
over
what
past

respect
meaning
lost

me
you

i knew
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