I hope I meet you sometime in the future
We'll bump into each other in  bookstore
Or a coffee shop
And we'll hug and make small talk
All along I'll be thinking
You were the first person I ever loved
You were my first everything
And then we'll talk about our lives
And all the great things that have happened
In the end you'll tell me you think about me once in a while
And I'll say I think of you too
And then we'll go out separate ways
And I'll think to myself
I hope I meet you sometime in the future

I don't love him
He's just a friend
But to him I might be more
His drunken words released secrets
Secrets I didn't want to know
And when I was drunk I made sure I kept them in
Because I don't know what would come out
If I let myself speak truthfully

I think I would have asked him if he likes me
If he thinks I'm pretty
I would ask why he only kisses me when he's drunk
And I would tell him that I read his poem

And that I feel that same warmth when we kissed
And that I could have stayed out all night too
And that it was like you were someone else
I know I made you feel like someone else
Because that night you weren't a player
Or a cheater
Or a liar
You were gentle
And you were special
And you were kind

All I did was release you
Everything buried deep inside was released
With my lips and with my smile
I found your weakness

So maybe next time were both drunk
I'll tell you I read your poem
And I'll tell you I wrote a poem back

Tomorrow I'm going to the lighthouse
And I'm going to draw all the beautiful things I see
Because people don't take enough time to see it

They don't see the ocean as an enormous creature
They see it as a place to lounge and capture food

They don't see clouds as beutiful gigantic structures
They see a shield from their precious sun

People don't understand the beauty around them
People are so indulged in luxury and technology
That all they see are things they want to see
And the beautiful things are trapped behind the selfish human mind

He tasted like **** and cheap liquor
It was 5 in the morning
We were on the couch
Friends on the floor
Our bodies were close
And it was hot
Early morning light crept in
But I couldn't see his face
He kissed me even though he shouldn't have
I think I was still a little drunk
I got that feeling again
The feeling of being wanted
But it only lasted a little while
Until it was time to go home
And I knew he wouldn't think of me again

Recently I remembered my favorite kiss
It wasn't the first
Or the most passionate
But it was slow
And sweet
We were sitting in a sweaty bus after prom
And everyone was exhausted
It was dark and I couldn't see your face
My body rested on yours in an uncomfortable spot
But it was perfect at the same time
I turned my head to look at you
And somehow you knew
So you leaned in to put your lips on mine
It lingered
I couldn't hear anything
It's like it was just the two of us
In the whole world
And I never got that feeling before
But right then
I knew I was in love
Because you were the only thing that mattered

The smell of fish lingers in the air
My hair slowly becomes sticky with salt
There is no sun today
It’s overcast and windy
The swells are small
The boat moves swiftly across the dark water
There is an electricity flowing through me
As the wind hugs my body
I feel it in every crevice
I feel it through every hair
And all of a sudden I miss everything
I miss being touched
And feeling like I was complete
And whole
The wind made me ache for you
Maybe not you
But anyone
Someone

I know I shouldn't have kissed those boys
With the whole town standing around
I didn't have much control over myself
And it felt good in a way
I felt unstoppable
And when I saw you through the crowd
There was fire inside me
I hated you for what you did to me
And I wanted to feel loved again
So I took the stupid boys hand
And I climbed up on the sidewalk
And I kissed him mostly because I could
And I kind of liked the attention
I liked the feeling of people looking at me
And thinking
Isn't that the girl who always sits alone and never talks?
I don’t want to be that girl anymore
When I pulled my face away from his, his smirk said he wanted more
But I turned and walked away
Only to find another boy waiting to feel my lips
That one was a mistake
And I wish I hadn't kissed that second boy
But I did and I felt loved again
In some messed up and twisted way
I hope you saw me
I hope you hated it
I hope you burned with jealousy
I hope you wish you hadn't left me behind
But I know you probably didn't.