they're still debating
and I'm just waiting
while the world is fading
around me
you see
i'm not strong enough
to give a ****
so I don't
because I don't have the guts
to stand up for myself
if I felt
differently than everyone else
so we blame everyone else
tiptoe around ourselves
and our responsibility
“oh this world is a terrible place”
I hear them say
as they do nothing
to make it change
they debate
or wait
or watch it fade
"this world is a terrible place"
they say

Fell asleep thinking about the old house yesterday
And the adventures in the backyard where I used to play
Three acres might seem like a lot for little kid
But I knew those woods better than my parents did
My wooden teepee served as a safe haven
When the world didn't feel like a suitable place to be in
I dreamed about Max my old best friend
Who kept me safe from nightly creatures and boogy men
Just a dog who still has a special place in my heart
A great dane who was five when the world made us part
I thought about the overlook where we dumped our leaves
I remembered the long days just me and the trees
These days those woods have Max and Phoenix too
The Golden retriever who got me and my sisters through
Much of that thing we call childhood
I didn't know it then but now I would
Give anything and everything to go back
And run wild through those backyard paths
Then I was free, I did not care or notice
That things weren't exactly how they were suppose to be noted
Now I reside in this fowl world where I can't spare a minute
Take me back to the time when my world had no limits

sitting, reminiscing, wishing
you were here to mend my broken heart
your the only one who can fix it
because your the one who tore it apart
"the first is always the worst" they say
but I didn't think it'd be this hard
loving you came easily
but to you, I was easy to discard

She's only happy when everyone's sleeping,
It's when she feels alive.
As all the silly people slip into oblivion,
She's right there by their sides,
All through the night,
Until the darkness subsides.

Blue eyes, blond side swept hair,
Mascara smudged make-up everywhere.
"Love was never in the cards for me" she says.
"Well what about right now?"
And in the midst of love and bliss,
She believes this lie somehow.

Another day,
Again as fast as they come, they're gone.
Leaving her begging,
"Please don't tell me this is how it's going to be."
But as fast as they leave,
They don't disappear.
Smoked-stained clothes,
Empty bottles, broken hearts,
And half-filled cans of beer
Is what they left behind.
"Why, why, why?"
"I just don't want to be alone this time."

My heart is beating out of my chest
This close contact
is putting my self-control to the test
You made up some lie
Sure to endure me
Sure to intrigue me
And you were right
At this moment
I'm sure that you've got me
Now my hair is a mess
I'm bearing just me
You told me I look my best
But it's hard for me to see
Our minds are both racing
Your eyes, they catch mine
Silent and awkward
Oh please just pass time
Then you went for the kiss
A little off
You just missed
But it was perfect
Beautiful, brilliant
You put your bravery to the test
I was young, naive and innocent
But when you kissed me you meant it