Let the rain fall down,
let it wipe away the pain,
then pick yourself up.

Caged and confused,
I've been so bemused;
I'm wondering who will win.

Will it be me?
Well, I have the key.
But it feels like such a sin.

I'm hiding inside,
and there I abide,
with my former skin.

She tries to usurp me,
she tries to hurt me,
and I see no way to win.

It hurts so much to look at you,
that sometimes I still cry,
and that alone makes me look back,
and start to wonder why...

Why were you so cruel to me?
Until the very end,
you know I find it funny cuz,
I thought you were my friend.

I don’t know what to say to you,
to end all of this pain.
But all I know is this, my friend,
I know it’s all in vain.

Once, you were a part of me.
A big piece of my heart.
And when you had let go of me,
you stole that giant part.

I’ll never be the same again,
I will never be whole.
But in the end, it’s all okay,
cuz I still have my soul.

The thought of suicide...
When you feel like that,
there's no where to hide,
and you'll never forget it.

It can break you,
or it can make you,
but please,

don't ever let it take you.

I'm sick of the pain!
There's no f*cking gain!
I can't believe there's a life ahead of me.

It's all the same,
it's all just a game.
And it's as stupid as I could ever be.

I need a way out!
I just need to shout!
But I know that no one will hear my plea.

So what's this about?
I'm jumping the boat.
To die in absolute misery.

It’s been one hundred days,
since I have been without you.
But it’s not so hard now,
‘cause my heart; it seems to doubt you.
You once had good intentions,
that, I say is true.
But sometimes I look back and think,
I’m better off without you.

You’ve beat me to the ground,
but still I stay around,
‘cause I’ve got a few words to say;
they’re gonna wipe your smirk away...

You thought you had me down and out,
so tell me, what was that about?
I knew you tried to hurt me bad,
but in the end, it’s you that’s sad!

Yet still, you seem to match my pace,
my mind, it seems to run a race.
I can’t keep holding on forever.

This heart is on its own endeavour.

It makes me think that up is down;
that lies are lurking all around,
I’m helpless here, my hands are bound,
and that’s just only what I found.

It’s got me so confused you see,
the hurt affects my memory,
but in them I still clearly see,
that what you did was wrong to me.

But I’ll get over this someday,
and she’ll learn you’re just out to play,
so when life falls apart, I’ll say:
Your life deserves to be this way.

To think that I have failed you once again.
It pains me to the core to see you down.
And I’m the reason why you are in pain...
I wish I could destroy what makes you frown.
We’ve held out through the problems these years past.
But once I thought our love had gone to waste.
Though now we’ve come to see our love held fast,
My love for you could never be replaced.
I know that we will always have some times...
When our problems will be too much to bear,
But even if I can’t see through the grime,
I know that you’ll always be there to care.
So even when our lives have passed us by,
I know I’ve always loved you ‘til I died.

I won't get drunk often.
Why do it in the first place?!
I don't see the big deal.*
That's because you won't listen!
How can I tell you how I feel?
When you're busy living in a place so surreal.
I can't even tell you what's on my mind,
and I fear that I have been left behind.
Why can't I just shut up and agree?
Why can't I just be normal and see?
See what it's like to mess myself up,
don't stop drinking 'til the end of the cup.
Well that just doesn't appeal to me,
is this the way things have to be?
I don't see the point in losing my mind,
and for some stupid reason, that leaves you blind.
Blind to my wants and blind to my needs,
You don't think something's wrong until it bleeds.

Well I'd like to tell you,
just how I feel.
So maybe today,
I'll show you what's real.

I'm lost in your gaze...
the sun could not compare,
to the flame in your golden orbs.

Striking,
the flames lick at the emerald leaves,
swirling together,
stealing my heart,
peering into my soul.

I lose myself in the swirling colors;
that make up my love.

Deep in your heart,
lies a great work of art,
between the twisted images,
do not be torn apart.
Forever in the light,
shadows draw no fear,
enemies cross no line,
they cannot draw near;
So listen to my words,
all that’s left to hear:
the petals fly away,
yet the stem remains.
So feel no pain,
go find all the pieces,
all that remains,
the hurt releases.

My check in card expires today,
so I guess I'll be on my way.
Until I find a way to pay,
This is all that's left to say.


:( Be back soon hopefully!