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Alicia Pena Oct 2013
My heart broke as i heard my mother cry herself to sleep and i so afraid .... Hid under the covers but i couldn't possibly hide from the endless pain i felt ... My innocence shattered .... I tried to shut out the screams ... Still Too young To understand why they couldn't just stop .... All i yearned for was for some peace .... while seeing love ... Soft ...sweet ... Tender love .. So
I promised myself i would not follow their path
I would love so very passionately ... falling hopelessly in love .. With trust ...respect ... Gentleness ...
Sweet kisses instead of constant pain ..... But as i close my eyes i can still remember when i didnt quite recognize daddy ... The fear he caused and now
It's so difficult  to open the doors of my heart ...to allow someone into my life ... What if he just wants to hurt me like daddy did .... I forgive him .... For i love him .. My father he will always be
I have to .... I need to so i can allow myself to be loved ... So i can set free ... I want to love like no other ever has ..... I know i can ... I have so much love to give ... So much happiness to finally feel ...
Of course i grew up with my parents fighting constantly .. Some violence .. But i can't say i had the worst childhood however it did change my path in life .. now i finally want to face my fears ...
Alicia Pena Oct 2013
I look at that girl with the long wavy hair walking down the Street alone  ...nobody truly understands her....because she likes being different .. Even if it means being lonely ... i have watched her cry time after time ... At her weakest moments she has desired to leave this world forever yet as she stares at the sky ...hope once again has filled her tender Heart ... I can now see a strength in her eyes that illuminates her for now she looks as the smallest yet most precious moments ... And all the endless beauty that surrounds her Everywere she looks ...
So much she once used to take for granted now are the center of her world .. There is so much light even without company she no longer feels completely alone ... She finally believes in herself a little bit more each day .... She sees her tears as a sign of healing ...and finally letting go of her past ... If anyone ever wonders how i know her so well ..it's because that girl is me .
I am glad i was able to express my feelings this way because I have learned alot along the way after all my struggles and i wish i had seen things i didn't see when i was younger ...
Alicia Pena Oct 2013
every single day she dreams of a faraway place
Were there exists the kind of peace she desires deep inside of her heart
She can see it crystal clear ...in every single detail There would be such Beauty
So magical she wishes she could fully express yet
She knows not many would understand
Though they don't quite need to
She simply knows that wonderful place exists for someday she will get there someday
Somehow
I wrote this inspired by nature .... By what i call paradise (:

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