Small metal beads hum
under my skin.
I wake up anxious
before my alarm,
my heart against my chest.

My stomach is full of *****,
something moves inside.

To swallow my vitamins I
clamp my hand over my mouth
while squeezing my eyes shut.
I gag and feel
for a second.
Afterwards I
sip more water.

As water enters my body
in large doses I get waves
that wash up through my knees
and leave through my forearms.  

Eventually my lips get cold.