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alexya Oct 2018
I’m sorry that I couldn't tell you how I was feeling,
I'm sorry that I always left relationships
broken and scarred.
I'm sorry I told you I was fine,
when in all reality I wanted to take my own life.
I wanted to tell you about what was going though my head,
I really did.
I really wanted to discuss
how thoughts of harming myself filled my head,
or how close I was one night to taking a whole bottle of unidentified medicine,
or how I've become so distant from you guys.
I just ended up filling my mind with decisions I’d dread in the morning.
I left you guys,
And replaced the feelings I had with this emotionally inexpressible teen.
I’m sorry that I began to feel this way,
You have to believe all I wanted was happiness,
But I simply couldn’t gain strength to do so,
but I’m here now.
alexya Sep 2018
Struggling to dig herself out of this reality she’s dug herself into,
while it continues to grow deeper and deeper.

Her emotions having vanished,
Leaving nothing but an empty girl behind.

While society tries, oh so hard to be cheery,
Despite the nasty truth that lies inside
her
She isn’t one who could be saved.
She is truly shattered,
No need to hide the pain.

Ignore the alcoholic beverage she hids on her lips,
She’s killing herself slowly,
And no one has seemed to notice.
Her cries into the void seem to be inevitable.
How is it no one can hear,
The thoughts that roar so loud inside.
She can’t continue,
And we all know why,
She takes her last breath
Simply leaving this world behind.

— The End —