Light, light, light.
I am a feather,
A cloud,
A speck of dust on your windowsill.

                                                    ­                         Unnoticed and unimportant,
                                                    ­                         But existing all the same.

All at once the sun shines,
Making me iridescent,
Breaking through my barrier,
Bringing me into the light.


Just like when you kiss me.

I feel your pain
because I want to
I watch from the outside
and then I bring it inside.


I think people are
playing god
which is ironic because
I don't believe in god
or people.


Sipping hot apple tea
and I burnt my tongue
and it hurts
but not nearly as much as you
so I embrace it.


Please help me forget
you.
I see little bits of you in everyone;
your crooked smile
loose curls
boyish laugh
and I hate you.


You know that I love
you
though.
Disregard everything I said
if it means
we can talk again.


Everyone walks by
not noticing
or noticing wrong
and I
am noticing
everything.

I’m slowly destroying myself.
Taking off pieces of flesh and tearing away limbs,
discarding my body as if it were clothing.

I’m escaping from this,
from you,
from this beating heart,
pumping blood through my veins,
coursing through and through,
top to bottom,
bottom to top.

I’m shrugging you off;
I’m letting go,
ethereal pleasure.

Your teeth graze my skin,
I don’t feel it.
But one look at your eyes
and I come undone.

Pushing and pulling,
I am sinking.
I am letting go.

You cannot touch me any more.
Left behind is my skin,
my hair,
my nails,
my eyes,
my bones;
I am only a soul,
floating,
at ease.
Finally.

Goodbye,
good bye.
Gone.

No
stop
don't
cut.
Put the blade down,
little girl,
pretty girl.
I promise
you will
have more love.
He isn't the last.
Please
don't hurt yourself
like he did
worse
permanent.
Your beautiful
porcelain skin
is full of scars
and blood
and oh no.
Stop
please
before you
go too far.
Listen
to my words
because I care
and
I'm scared.
You're shaking
and your colour is gone.
Please
don't
let yourself
fade.
Pretty baby
didn't you know
I loved you
we
loved you.

I could be a godess and you

you could be there.

you could watch me drink too much and dance under the moon and her children.

the grass would be wet and cold

my head would be spinning

our hearts would be pounding.

my foot would slip

you could catch me.

and drunk as we are

off youth and cheap beer

we could look at each other

and forget

the hatred we've buried each other in

and the love we swore we left behind

and we could just

move into each other.

but that would only last a second

or a minute

or the night.

when the sun came up

heads would be pounding

and you would be full of regret

and I would be full of sadness

and we'd both go back

to pretending we don't love each other.

so maybe

I'll stay away

and you

you will keep forgetting me.

She likes cars.

I forget that she likes me.

She laughs.

I forget the feeling of sadness.

We kiss.

I forget the world outside of us exists.

Her hand is wrapped in my hair.

I forget that we are two separate people.

We break away and she smiles.

My heart forgets to beat.

She loves me.

*I forget that I love her, too.

Quel qu’unes
Me dis
Que ton nom c’est come un belle chanson

Mais a moi
C’est plus comme revenir aux maison.

Tes yeux fragiles
Me regarde comme un roi
Le seul personne qui peut t’aidé

Mais je sais
Il n’y a rien que je pouvais faire

The soft patter of bare feet against hard wood,

soft giggles in the back ground,

air swirling with sweat and sweet lust.

Two pairs of lips,

curved into gentle smiles.

Skin glowing with perspiration.

Chests heave up and down in unison,

bodies barely an inch away.

Electricity tingles between two souls.

More than just lust.

Stolen kisses,

hands intertwined.

Eyes contented,

roaming over expanses of exposed skin.

Lingering ******.

Ever-holding happiness.

Pleasure moments hanging like dust.

Sun beams dance across sheets.

Day wasted,

perfect day.

Dancing beneath the stars,

intertwining,

becoming

more than we were

this morning.

Together

ruling

the world

if only in our heads.

Hands clasped together

holding on

for

dear life.

Erupting giggles

breaking through the silence of night

and

cricket songs.

Holding tight as we

explore

the earth

under it’s hazy blanket

of darkness.

Exploring

each other

tearing off layers of

innocence.

Bed of grass

laying still wrapped in

each other.

Gold and orange burst into the sky

exploding

through the dark.

Contended smiles

as you drive me home

and

I fall asleep

in the passenger seat.

ravage me.*

except not quite,

I just want someone to want me so much emotionally

so much that it transcends the physical want.

But that someone wants me so much emotionally

that they want to be as close to me as possible

as much a part of me as they can be

so their emotional want

turns into a craving so strong its expressed physically

in a primitive manner

with every second being spent trying to get as unified as possible.

soft lips

on softer skin.

you smile,

you’re nervous,

so am I.

if we only knew;

this was the last of new memories.

the curve of your ribs,

the dimples on your lower back.

perfect.

my breath,

is taken away.

I shiver

as you touch my skin

and goosebumps appear.

you get closer

as I get closer

and now

we’re closer

than anyone could be.

glistening foreheads

and heaving chests.

we lie,

in silence,

in each other.

enveloped in love.

love we’ve made,

love we feel.

love we’re losing.

we just don’t know it yet.

and now

I’m lost

without you

in me

without

you’re love

in me

Where is The Heavenly Father?
As fire burns. Acid smoke fills lungs.
Screams of terror, hearts pounding. What did we do to deserve this?
Escape, we must find a way.
Run down stairs, fillled with dark clouds.
Glistening metal in the sun, but something's not right.
They rush to the site, full of fear and courage,
running in, without thought,
we have to save them. Deafening explosions,
everywhere, drop to the floor and crawl.
Who could be so evil, who could do this.
Why? overhear the laughter of The Prince of Devils.
We're coming, we can hear your crys,
what can we do? Despair and dread start to fill us.
But we can't give up, inside there lays fathers,
children, wives, aunts,
they are all loved. They are all lost.
Two great kings fall. Stop as the rains pour down.

I hate the sun.
It’s taunting vibrance.
Implied happiness.
Melting and warming,
higher than any one can reach.
Smiling down with condescension.

If I had the choice,
rain or sun,
I would let myself dance beneath the gloomy grey.

The rain is easier
because the rain does not pretend to be something it’s not.