Life wasn’t what I thought
hoped or even dreamed
as I sat you looking at me
I could see the pain in your eyes
I could tell you were upset
and as I walked away that day
I let it go
because to me you were a ****
then three years later
I lie in a made bed
looking at a guy I didn’t know
I am sure he saw the pain
just as I saw yours
I am a kid
a kid who lived in fear
lived in pain from the choices
I made
now a year later
I sit and rejoice
I have learned from the past
I have sat and listened to my heart
I am still a kid
Still a growing girl
but I have changed
in the best way I could
I am a new girl

I was a freshmen
Scared and small
I slammed my locker
On that September day
Then the next day
I was in a new grade
I was suddenly a senior
Making my way
Just like that
I was no longer so small
And just like that
Freshmen year seemed so far
As I made my way
To graduation day
I tried so hard to not cry
For saying goodbye
Would be the hardest part.
We threw up our caps
We paraded away.
And nothing I said,
Could change that day.
We hugged our teachers, our parents, and friends.
For on that day
Our life truly began.
School was all over
College was a night away.
We packed up my bags,
That September day.
My mom began to cry,
My dad held it in.
For they knew I would be
A car ride away.
They watched as their
Daughter drove away
To start her new life
At college that day.

without you
the sky doesn’t seem as blue
without you
the rain falls more
the clouds are gray
and the sun not as bright
because without you
life just isn’t right
something about life
doesn’t work
the way it used too.
I just wish
I had one more night
to see your face
to give you a hug
to say I love you
because
without you
my TV is black and white
my sugar not as sweet
my chips not as crunchy
without you
I wouldn’t know what to do
I used to sit and wonder
what life would be
if I couldn’t count to three
and see your face
what would it be
if I couldn’t count to thirteen
and see morning sun with you
because without you
the grass isn’t green
and the roses aren’t as red
because without you
life just feels dead
But now I can feel it
I can see
that if I count to 113
you couldn’t see me
If I’d known this
when I held you
in my arms
I would never let go!
because without you
my life is gray
my eyes filled with tears
and My lips quivering
so right now I have you
but not for long
so Hold on tight
B-man because it is going
to be the ride of your life.