Addiction of mine where did you come from, when did you start and why?
Dealing with you everyday, why wont you just go away?
Deciding I didn't want you anymore, but you wont let me go.
I often think about all the things you have done and taken from me, and I cant believe I went on so long letting you do that to me.
Trying to control me, you did very well.
I dont even know who I really am anymore. How did you do that, I want to know.
Only now Im in control, no longer letting you control me and who I want to become.
Nice to have known you this addiction of mine, but now its time to say goodbye

Living in a world all my own, only to realize there is nobody around.
Needing and wanting more than what I have now.
Emptyness fill my very soul and and it just wont let go.
Thats when Loneliness sets in.
Living in a world all my own, I try and let all my loneliness go.
Needing and wanting a place for me to go, but wherever it is I still feel alone.
Every feeling that I face brings me back to this empty, lonely place inside of me.
Starving to not be lonely anymore, and striving just to keep myself alive.
Thats when loneliness sets in

Can't believe your time here on earth is done.
Only God knows why he called you home to him.
Never forgetting you and all the times, all the things we shared.
Trying not to be sad and let you being gone bring me down, but I find this loss so difficult to deal with.
Remembering you and the life that you lived is the only thing to get me through.
Always living with a smile is what you did the best.
Rising above us now and looking down upon until we meet again.
I will miss uou until my end and God calls me too home with him.
Only one you, and now your gone, taken too soon making this world feel so empty.
Under all my smiles and laughs that I give, remember there is a tear inside if me that I cry for you and you alone.
So until the day we meet again I know you are always with me looking down.

A passionate touch that I love so much also touches me with an unknown guilt when it comes.
Feeling chills down my back and tears on my face as our bodies meet again.
Filling me with sorrow every time we share that embracing stare.
A simple pleasure that I hate within as I sin a great sin.
Refraining from love with this affair Im in

Getting rid of my infectious thoughts that are spreading in my  direction.
Looking in the mirror that shows my reflection is what Im gonna do.
Im gonna live in my sleep where I know I am safe and i will lock away my dreams and secrets in safe with a combination so no thief can take them.
My dreams will no longer be dryed up and I will search for a meaning, my meaning.
Life will no longer be death but death will be life.
I will have no more thoughts of my life before and I will shun thoughts of my sins.
My insecurities and imperfections that hold me back will not anymore, they will not keep me strapped or trapped as I sit and crack.
No more being stuck in this web if love that has led and kept me in one place to long.
I am escaping from this prison I am in and never knowing how I got here I will never know.
I am asking for inception, a seed to be planted in to help me fight the demons of my pasr and validate this life I live today.
Im gonna jump out my window beacause the front door is locked with out a key and there I will establish me.

Your like a grape on a vine, just like the rest of the bunch you are with.
Wanting to be anywhere but there.
Away from all the madness.
Trying to prime and fall to the ground before the rest so you can be picked for the punnet or for wine.
You can be bitter or the sweetest of sweet.
Tonight the choice is your as u hand in the night will you stay or let go.
Whatever you choice, when you wake up to dawn maybe you will no longer be sad.