All hope was gone
I was drowning
The swirling currents of thoughts
Dragging me down
Swept under the churning waves
Not able to resurface
Deeper and deeper I sunk
Into the abyss of darkness
Down like an anchor
Unable to breathe
Until
I see the waves part
A shining ray of light
Passing through
Illuminating the way
I swim
As fast as I can
Reaching for the surface
Till I break through
Up above
the world
Bright as can be
I no longer sink
But float

Day by day
I go through life
The past behind
The future ahead

Day by day
It’s harder to smile
The happiness
Fading away

Day by day
Harder to sleep
Thoughts and emotions
Preventing me to dream

Day by day
Waking up to a scream
For the dreams turn into
Nightmares

Day by day
Harder to see
Tears blurring
Reality

Day by day
Harder to breathe
The world taking the air
Out of me

Day by day
I laugh
For the world
Is playing a
Cruel joke on me

Up above the clouds I sit
Longing for the day
When I runaway
No one to talk to
Nothing to do
I sit and wait

The day has come
For me to run
My heart beating like a drum
As I stand to jump
No courage
No strength
I sit back down
Longing for the day
When I runaway

You take your grief
You take your pain

And cast it out
From your brain

Thoughts as destructful
as a hurricane

Your happiness
Hard to maintain

Life is hard
You proclaim

You write it out
And sign your name

On the ground
Looking up
I watch
I watch the stars
The shining stars
So much hope
They bring
To me
But at last
What is hope
But only a dream
For hope is not a hero
But a wolf
Dressed as a sheep
For when hope is lost
So is life

Surrounded by walls
No way in or out
Stuck inside
On my own
No one to talk to
No one to love
Engulfed in darkness
I wait
In despair

Then there’s a noise
A knock on the wall
Followed by another
Then another
One by one
Brick by brick
I tear the wall down

Light streams in
And I see them
I hesitate
The darkness kept me safe
The light foreign to me
They reach out
No other reassurance needed
I step out
Into the light

too much pain
too much grief
too much sadness
too much thoughts
too much regrets
too much loss

too little hope
too little happiness
too little time
too little friends
too little glee
too little wins

In Darkness I lay
Thunderstorms in my head
Raining their doubts and insecurities
Thundering their lies
No shelter from the rain
Nowhere to go
The only thing to do
Wait out the storm

Drenched
I feel no better
For the storm has done its job
Numb from the coldness
No emotion to be felt
Consumed in darkness
Hopelessness taking root

The storm clears
No thunder to be heard
The clouds part way
No rain to be felt
And there I see it
A rainbow in the distance
A promise to mankind
Hope for a better day