They way you look,
When your eyes are closed,
Is too beautiful for me to bear.

Honestly,
It's your eyes.
They tell me everything that you can't.

They tell me,
I want you.
They say,
I love you.

But..
They also say,
I've been hurt.
They mention,
I am so very vulnerable..
And,
Please..
Please don't break my heart..

And that is why,
I love you.

Swoosh.Cling.
“One more try, little girl.
I know you will get it this time.”
He says with a crooked smile.
He doesn’t really think so.
He wants her to fail so she will try again.
He wants her money.

She takes a deep breath.
Looks at the man grinning at her.
Stares at that one bottle that she has to get.
The one thing standing between her and her precious prize.
She squeezes her eyes closed.
Throw.
Swoosh.
Cling.
Goal.
“Mommy! Look I got a goldfish!!”
She screams with a huge grin plastered to her face.
She holds up her prize triumphantly for all to see.  

I smile.
If only it were that easy.

Just take my hands,
They are held out for you.
My shoulders are small,
But you can cry on them to.

We may grow apart,
But believe me this is true..
We may be just friends,
But I'll always love you.

I can't stand it.

You're mad at me one second,
Then okay the next.

You want to yell at me,
Then buy me things and smile.

You know that I love you.
I think of you as if you were truely my mother.

But when you do these things to me,
You act just like her.

Just like the woman who made me cry every night.
Just like the woman who beat me.

Just like the woman,
You told me you would never be.

Mom, I love you.
But I dont know how to act around you.  

I dont know how to please you,
And I dont know how to make you happy.

I wish I knew.
I really wish I did.

But you always tell me,
"Change in a relationship is a two way street."

"You cannot make a change in someone,
If you do not expect to change yourself."

Well, here I am.
Ready to change.

But, I wonder..
Where are you?

I would just like to say,
I will wait for you.

I will wait through the days,
I will wait through the nights.

I will wait through the tears,
I will wait through the fights.

I want this to work,
I can't see life without you.

If I'd ever lose you..
I'd surely die, too.

I can't stand the thought,
Of not being by your side.

As you fight to protect me,
My heart is filled with pride.

There once was a place
A place that I knew,
So terribly cold,
And bitterly blue..
If you find yourself
In that place too,
I will take your hand
And walk with you.

The pains
In my shoulder
In my knees
In my head
In my heart.
I cant take these pains.
I cant take them at all.
I want them to end.
This handful of pills..

Jump.
He says.
Just do it.  
You will be fine.*
I want to jump.
I really do.
But can I?
The waves crash below me.
The wind whips my hair in my face.
The only thing between me
And my fate
Is this cliff…
And I don’t know if I can do this..

Suddenly there are hands on my back.
I fall forward.
Crash.
Into the ocean.
The waves swirl around me
Trying to swallow me.
Trying to suffocate me.
Trying to freeze me.
I fight
But..
This is what I wanted.
Right?

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years.
She sat by herself,
Her eyes filled with tears.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
She sat by herself,
Where spiders made webs from her ears.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
Thinking of her husband,
Who used to drink many beers.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
Recollecting the day,
To life came all her fears.

There once was a lady,
Who was once very glad.
She was overwhelmed,
With everything she had.

There once was a lady,
Who wanted to have kids.
She was so happy on that day,
Until she found her son had SIDS.

There once was a lady,
Who was so filled with grief.
Her husband left her,
To her utter disbelief.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years.
She sat by herself,
Her eyes filled with tears.

I got in a ship,
And flew up into space.
From the moon I looked down.
And do you know what I saw?
A great big expanse of Blue,
With the most beautiful specks of green.
And it was huge.
And it was amazing.
And I cried.
Because I realized;
I may be very tall,
But from up here,
You could never even see me
Because I am so small.

Tweets of birds,
Laughing of leaves,
Songs of spring.

The sun shines brightly on me,
Smiles back to me,
Like a mother to her son.

Tweets of birds,
New babies,
In the nest.

Laughing of leaves.
The sun rustles them,
Like fingers in his hair.

The songs of spring,
They sing to me,
And I welcome the sweet tune.

You're too..
Young
You don't..
Understand
Maybe when you are
Older
Maybe when you gain some
Sense

I'm not too
Young
I do
Understand
I don't need to be
Older
And, I have gained more
Sense
Than you.

If I..
Baby,
Listen to me.
If I were to go..
What would you do?
...
Would you..
Miss me at all?

I love your hands.

They are bigger
Than mine.

And more rough
Than mine.

But they fit perfectly,
In mine.