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Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Every time,
I move to a new place,
We get so many boxes.

One box,
One year.
Two boxes,
Two years.

My sisters and I,
We would build cool forts.
Huge mazes.
To hide the sadness.

One box,
One year.
Two boxes,
Two years.

This house though,
The one I live in now,
We used so many boxes..
Maybe?

Three boxes..
Three years?
Four boxes..
Four years?

I'm so happy here,
I dont want to leave.
My whole life is here,
I just can't leave.

One box,
One year.
Two boxes,
*Two years.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I'm burning,
And I'm black in my lungs,
Dont you know it feels good with fire back on you tongue?
I thought I could stop.
Apparently not.
I love it.
I love the burn.
I want the burn.
I need the burn.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
They way you look,
When your eyes are closed,
Is too beautiful for me to bear.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Honestly,
It's your eyes.
They tell me everything that you can't.

They tell me,
I want you.
They say,
I love you.

But..
They also say,
I've been hurt.
They mention,
I am so very vulnerable..
And,
Please..
Please don't break my heart..

And that is why,
I love you.
Alexia Vlasak Mar 2013
To some,
I am lost.
To them I say,
*"I am but a wanderer."
And those who wander,
Are not always lost.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
The silence..
It's so
Loud.
I can't..
Breathe.
The darkness,
It's suffocating.
This cant go on forever.
You have to let me back in.
I can't stand this.
Let me
**Out.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Anticipation.
Oh, just do it already.
Please.
I need this.
I need you.
I need to feel your lips,
Pressed to mine..
I need to know..
You want me just
As I want you.
There you go.
Just a little closer.
There.
Alexia Vlasak Apr 2013
The way you flip your hair.
The way you are so content.
The way that you listen.
It's driving me
*Crazy.
A friend of mine wrote this. I thought it was fantastic.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Swoosh.Cling.
“One more try, little girl.
I know you will get it this time.”
He says with a crooked smile.
He doesn’t really think so.
He wants her to fail so she will try again.
He wants her money.

She takes a deep breath.
Looks at the man grinning at her.
Stares at that one bottle that she has to get.
The one thing standing between her and her precious prize.
She squeezes her eyes closed.
Throw.
Swoosh.
Cling.
Goal.
“Mommy! Look I got a goldfish!!”
She screams with a huge grin plastered to her face.
She holds up her prize triumphantly for all to see.  

I smile.
If only it were that easy.
Alexia Vlasak Feb 2013
Just take my hands,
They are held out for you.
My shoulders are small,
But you can cry on them to.

We may grow apart,
But believe me this is true..
We may be just friends,
But I'll always love you.
This came to me at midnight.. I just had to write it down.
Alexia Vlasak Dec 2013
Please just listen,
I don't ask for much.

I know I'm not a lot.
I'm not good,
Nor bad.
I'm not happy,
Nor sad.
I just am.

Please just listen,
I don't ask for much.
I have been so inactive.. I'm terrible. I haven't posted since April.. But I will be posting more hopefully. This is rough, and I probably will take it down, but here it is for now.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I don't know why,
But I make mistakes.
And we make mistakes.
Together.

Through thick,
And through thin.
I'm yours,
If you'll be mine.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I can't stand it.

You're mad at me one second,
Then okay the next.

You want to yell at me,
Then buy me things and smile.

You know that I love you.
I think of you as if you were truely my mother.

But when you do these things to me,
You act just like her.

Just like the woman who made me cry every night.
Just like the woman who beat me.

Just like the woman,
You told me you would never be.

Mom, I love you.
But I dont know how to act around you.  

I dont know how to please you,
And I dont know how to make you happy.

I wish I knew.
I really wish I did.

But you always tell me,
"Change in a relationship is a two way street."

"You cannot make a change in someone,
If you do not expect to change yourself."

Well, here I am.
Ready to change.

But, I wonder..
Where are you?
Alexia Vlasak Jan 2013
All I hear is deathly silence.
You look away from me,
And I am invisible.
Alexia Vlasak Feb 2013
I would just like to say,
I will wait for you.

I will wait through the days,
I will wait through the nights.

I will wait through the tears,
I will wait through the fights.

I want this to work,
I can't see life without you.

If I'd ever lose you..
I'd surely die, too.

I can't stand the thought,
Of not being by your side.

As you fight to protect me,
My heart is filled with pride.
Alexia Vlasak Mar 2013
It's kind of like an old home.
A sort of,
Fixer-upper.

There are cracks on the walls,
And dents in the doors,
The windows are smashed,
And the stairs creak,
A rotted roof,
And some mossy bricks,
Cobwebbed corners,
And overgrown weeds.

But just like an old house,
It's the best that there is.
A little bit of love,
And a lot of work,
Can make this old house,
Into the love of your life.
Alexia Vlasak Feb 2013
The day you leave my side,
Will be a day that's filled with tears.

I'm not sure how this came to be,
This whole thing called,
You and me.
I kind of like it.
But don't tell anyone.

I fell for you when I saw your eyes,
They were filled with tears,
Just like mine.
I kept myself quiet,
You just couldn't see.

Then you found me,
So lost in your eyes.
You took a chance,
And I could finally see,
You were made so perfectly for me.

We were together,
Two kids in the sun.
Lost in our romance.
We were blinded,
By things called reality.

Now you are leaving,
My prince,
To the sea.
The service just calls you,
*But what about me?
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
There once was a place
A place that I knew,
So terribly cold,
And bitterly blue..
If you find yourself
In that place too,
I will take your hand
And walk with you.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
The pains
In my shoulder
In my knees
In my head
In my heart.
I cant take these pains.
I cant take them at all.
I want them to end.
This handful of pills..
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Jump.
He says.
Just do it.  
You will be fine.*
I want to jump.
I really do.
But can I?
The waves crash below me.
The wind whips my hair in my face.
The only thing between me
And my fate
Is this cliff…
And I don’t know if I can do this..

Suddenly there are hands on my back.
I fall forward.
Crash.
Into the ocean.
The waves swirl around me
Trying to swallow me.
Trying to suffocate me.
Trying to freeze me.
I fight
But..
This is what I wanted.
Right?
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
Let's keep this quiet.
Lets pretend it's just you and I..
You and I
Together.
Me,
On you.
You,
Holding me.
Let's keep this secret.
Between,
You
And me..
This simple thing..
A memory.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years.
She sat by herself,
Her eyes filled with tears.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
She sat by herself,
Where spiders made webs from her ears.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
Thinking of her husband,
Who used to drink many beers.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years,
Recollecting the day,
To life came all her fears.

There once was a lady,
Who was once very glad.
She was overwhelmed,
With everything she had.

There once was a lady,
Who wanted to have kids.
She was so happy on that day,
Until she found her son had SIDS.

There once was a lady,
Who was so filled with grief.
Her husband left her,
To her utter disbelief.

There once was a lady,
Who sat for seven years.
She sat by herself,
Her eyes filled with tears.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I got in a ship,
And flew up into space.
From the moon I looked down.
And do you know what I saw?
A great big expanse of Blue,
With the most beautiful specks of green.
And it was huge.
And it was amazing.
And I cried.
Because I realized;
I may be very tall,
But from up here,
You could never even see me
Because I am so small.
Alexia Vlasak Apr 2013
Tweets of birds,
Laughing of leaves,
Songs of spring.

The sun shines brightly on me,
Smiles back to me,
Like a mother to her son.

Tweets of birds,
New babies,
In the nest.

Laughing of leaves.
The sun rustles them,
Like fingers in his hair.

The songs of spring,
They sing to me,
And I welcome the sweet tune.
Alexia Vlasak Apr 2013
I feel,
Like the space between breaths.
Neither here,
Nor there.
Not living,
And not dead.
I'm not lost,
But I'm not found.
I'm just,
There.
Existing,
But not doing,
Or achieving
Anything.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
There once was a man,
An ever exciting man,
Who danced and danced,
In the rain.

There once was a man,
An ever loving man,
Who kissed his wife and children,
Every day.

There once was a man,
An ever selfless man,
Who fought for his country,
And got nothing in return.

There once was a man,
An ever loved man,
Who, one day, got shot,
In the back.

There now is a man,
An ever sorry man,
Who cries and cries,
Every day.

There now is a man,
An ever still man,
Who will never ever be able to dance again,
In the rain.
Alexia Vlasak Feb 2013
Is it worth,
All of the pain.
Is it worth,
All of the ache.
Is it worth,
All of the disappointment?

It may just be time,
To say goodbye.
It may just be time,
To start anew.
It may just be time,
To break this off.

We grew apart.
We have different dreams.
We cant stand eachother.
*But I love you.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I'm Trapped.
Behind those iron bars,
She waits.
I need to get out.
For the moment when,
Her true love,
Will come for her,
I need to get out!*
And set her free.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
You're too..
Young
You don't..
Understand
Maybe when you are
Older
Maybe when you gain some
Sense

I'm not too
Young
I do
Understand
I don't need to be
Older
And, I have gained more
Sense
Than you.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
If I..
Baby,
Listen to me.
If I were to go..
What would you do?
...
Would you..
Miss me at all?
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
The warmth of your arms.
The tickle of your breath.
The sweetness of your innocence..

The way you laugh at me.
They way you stare.
The way you play with my hair..

You make my breath speed up.
You make my heart skip beats.
You make me lose my speech..

You're amazing.
You're crazy.
You're lovely.
Alexia Vlasak Nov 2012
I love your hands.

They are bigger
Than mine.

And more rough
Than mine.

But they fit perfectly,
In mine.

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