It's strange, isn't it.
One minute you can be friends with someone,
Only to be hurt by them the next.

It's strange.
One minute you are happy,
Only to want to cry the next.

Everything is strange.

I have a stalker.
But the thing is,
I know who he is.

He is my 'friend.'
Or at least I thought he was.
Spencer...

Grab me.
Follow me.
Watch me.

I want to tell you stop,
But you won't listen.
You won't stop.

I miss you.
It was my fault that I lost you though.
Just likes its my fault that I still love you.

I miss you so much.
I never wanted to leave you,
But sometimes you have to do something you don't want to.

I miss you.
I did what I had to do
In order to keep you safe.

I miss you so much.
I will always love you.
Just like I will always blame myself for what happened.

You say I'm insane.
You are right.
I am insane.
I am broken.
I am shattered.
I am absolutely insane.

It hurts.
It hurts when you are betrayed.
Especially if the one who betrayed you was the one friend you have known for seven years.

But you know what they say.

The worst thing about betrayal is that it doesn't come from you enemies.
It comes from your closest friends.

Pathetic.
Disappointment.
*****.

Ha.

I thought you were supposed to be my friend.
All that time I spent by your side.
Every single time you left me and I stayed by your side.

YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MY FRIEND!

But no, you had to ******* mess with my life.
You had to make my other friends hate me.
You had to make me want to die even more.

What a wonderful friend you are.
You said we would be together forever.
You ******* liar.

People think that my life is perfect.
My smiles are real.
My cover wrists aren't scared.
My eyes don't shed a tear.

People are wrong.
My smiles are fake.
My wrists are scared.
My eyes shed thousands of tears.

People think that my life is perfect.
My parents are sweet and nice.
My body is only bruised because I fell.
My spirit isn't shattered.

People are wrong.
My parents are monsters.
My body is bruised because of them.
My spirit is completely shattered into a million pieces.