The ******* heat in my veins. The rage in my heart. My head is going crazy. I want to die most days. But for you I live. I live as much as I allow myself too. It's hard. It's an endevering life & I'm heartbroken. Come back to life my darling. Come back to me. Come back to life my friend.

His heart, his smile. His beautiful blue eyes, they pierce my memory. All I see lately is the what ifs and the could haves. He stole my heart & then god stole him. How could there be a god so cruel. So cruel to take away such a beautiful soul? I question it everyday. I see his face everyday. Even if he's not here, I know he is.