1.
I cannot sleep through
the night anymore, too many
thoughts of what has past  

2.
I still feel his hands
on me, around me, in me
I wish I could forget

3.
I think the old me
could have handled this better
but was she ever real?  

4.
I do not think he
signed up for all this-- I'm just
waiting for the end

I think we all have puzzles that represent our life  
But for me most of the pieces are just missing
I think I threw them away when I was just a child
But now my whole reality is sinking  

I hid them away in a box somewhere deep inside my mind  
but I threw away the key so long ago
I try to get it open, just to peer inside
but apparently, that is not an option  

I think my brain is protecting me from things that I don't know
But now all my memories seem to be fading
I just want to finish this puzzle so I can figure out
But maybe that would ruin more than it would be saving