It's a harsh truth of life that I know,
Through the pain heavy footsteps that show
How a slap in the face, how the heart learned its place
The emotions my mind learned to stow.

I describe my love as so glowing.
With new potential ever flowing-
When my heart gave in, allowed feeling again
That moment in time never slowing.

Though this process of finding took years
You've guided me through all of my tears.
To love, to adjust, a new reason to trust
Day by day, note by note, healed my fears.

I am not a secret keeping person.
I value knowledge, truth, and honesty.
Yet, somehow, admitting my own truths
Is impossible.

When the world sees so few shades,
I always hide inside my fragile heart.
I take this other name until I admit myself
To myself.

I trust you with the universe, my dear.
No one person has come this close to me.
How much can I afford to lose of myself,
If I stay?

No relationship comes without a cost.
It is a cost I gladly bear for you.
How much of me do you carry, which
You could drop?

My freshman year, I wrote a paper about appreciating the little things in life. In retrospect, I was definitely on crack

How many moments make love worth it?
How many moments justify the pain of loss?

I type "help" into my search bar a lot
Not really sure who would answer me
Though perhaps now, I'm desperate not for an answer
But just for my mind's chaos to be freed

The sun flies bright
Yet my mind is dim
The sky glows clear
Yet my thoughts are cloudy
The flowers smell sweet
Yet my words are bitter
It's a beautiful day
Yet my heart is hurting