I check the phone, looks like you never rang
although you claimed to love me,
just the other day
the blush on my cheeks
reminds me of times we had
I'll dream of you and it feels so **** bad
this cold is chilling me, more than you're missing me
and it's a warm summer's night
I'm sitting here, waiting here
as the ache goes on, and I'll go on
but not in happiness without you
because the light can't shine, without the sun
and I might die, without your love
one day I hope you'll find me here,
I waited so long
just for that call, but without a word
you never rang
they check my pulse, yet feel, not a thing
as I lay here, drifting away
I open my mouth to slowly say:
without your love, I'll slip away

Leave it, don't say a word
Less is said, then more is heard
I fear, my dear, that your words mean plenty
While your actions fade, I will pray,
that you still love me to this day

though this road is winding,
I'm gonna walk it
if I make no find,
I'll still walk with pride
if I lose myself on the way,
I'll lose it for you
all these twists and turns,
they make me stumble
this road,
it makes me lose my mind
and oh I'd die,
to walk it with you one more time

There it is, that thing they call
"love"
tossed around day in, day out
some have felt it, and for it some have died
but me, I don't believe
if love were real, he'd look at me
if love were real, I might be pretty
if he was real, I might not fear
that love isn't here
but even if it's so, I should not care
for who could love a girl like me?
a girl that loves Something,
you can see as well as air

I lay in the tall grass
sprawled out, bare feet
The sun kisses my skin; pale in reflection
From my forehead to my eyelids,
my eyelashes casting shadows
then to my cheek bones, to the tip of my nose
leading down to my lips, I feel the warmth of
sunshine's slight kiss
The slow breeze swirls around my face
and I can smell the slight trace
of strawberries emanating from my hair
tangling with the air
I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and sigh
then look up to the sky, and smile
In this moment, I think of you
butterflies flutter, and the blood rushes
to my cheeks
Then I realize, it's just a fantasy
My dream of me and you, will
never come true
Suddenly, the sky isn't so blue
and I my arms feels so empty
the clouds roll in, and block out the sun
I'm forgetting your voice, and I notice
my hands are grasping at my heart,
this is where the hole resides, and it aches
every thought of you, takes a smile and a wince
I sit up now, head down
one tear rolls down my cheek
because this is all I can do
as much as it pains me to say, I love you
but like the clouds,
you just rolled on through

There he is, I spotted him for the first time
he looks like an angel, could this be for real?
it doesn't seem true that I met you
but I have, and I'm loving this feeling,
this feeling for you

I noticed the way you look at her
And the way you hold her,
Even though I try my hardest to impress you
And when I pass you in the hallway
I catch my breath,
Yeah, I noticed
The way you will never notice me
And yeah I know,
that it will never be more than my
hopeless dream,
you and me.

She loves this life,
she’ll say it with pain
She’ll smile today,
but you can see that truth is all in vain
This lie can’t get past me,
not when I can see,
that heart slowly breaking on her sleeve
I pray for this girl, because God,
this girl is me

Here in my dreams
I can breathe, hear my heart beat
Here in my dreams
I see your face, feel your embrace
Here in my dreams
I'm set free, I know of no boundaries
Right here in my dreams
It's me and you, just us two
Nothing can break us apart,
for we have been set apart
Just me and you, only us two
Forever, fingers intertwined, in this maze
we call life
here in my dreams

No more sweet words
and extended metaphors
No more of this
dancing around the truth
**** it
Guess what?
I love you
Leave it, don't say a word
I don't want to hear it
and that's all

In my drama class we had to right an, "I am/ I come" from poem/story.
We had to write 3 things on each of these categories: places, names, accomplishments, pet peeves, aspirations, fear, colors, foods, and religion. this poem/story is supposed to depict who you are, what your life is about. this is my story.*

I am the ridiculed, I come from eternal happiness.
He is my place, the safe harbor I run to often. That warm, soft place that invites me in, that which lives within myself.
He is my name, when people see me, I want them to see Him. He is the name I call onto when I'm scared or sad or even in my happiest moments.
He is my accomplishment, being loved by Him, and walking with Him is my greatest accomplishment, the only one I hold close to my heart.
He is my aspiration, all I aspire is to be like Him; be with Him.
He is my fear, I fear His mighty right hand and judgement. He is the fear that protects me from all of my other fears.
He is the gentle reminder to be patient with people, and forget my pet peeves.
He is my favorite color; the light to my life. I stand in awe of His brilliant colors.
He is my food, for He fills the emptiness in my soul, makes my heart whole again.
This is not my religion, this is my relationship with Christ. This is my walk of life, and I intend to walk it with pride.


I am the trees, shedding all my leaves. I come from the fall breeze enveloping me, the way His love does.
I am the lost and broken-hearted, my life cold and dark, which He has now lit on fire.

I am the ridiculed, I come from eternal happiness...

In depth, without words
One look in the eye,
and it's all heard
The deed is done, done is yours
you fell for my heart,
and I'm cradled by yours
So many nights, dreams
and lost sleep
look and searching,
but finding no keep
It just won't seep,
that your eyes are on me
finally a breath of relief
one kiss on the cheek,
I'm all yours.

Did you know,
that my heart was fragile?
Did you know,
that I loved you more than anything?
Did you know,
that you crushed my heart?
Well now I know,
you used me.
I know now,
you never cared.
And you will know,
you're sorry.
You will see,
how karma works.

sleepless nights and rainy days,
they just wont seem to go away
the sweet things in life,
they just float on by
while I’m stuck here,
in the endless cloudy double-mirror.
you never see what you want
it just teases and taunts,
haunts the minds of girls alike
I’m setting standards for the world tonight.

he may not be real,
but when it's pitch dark
and you can't hear a peep,
he visits me, deep in my sleep.
So vivid, so real
sometimes I don't remember,
but I know I'd spent the night with him
So even if you're not real,
visit me in my dreams.
It may hurt later, but as long as I get
those few moments with you...
I'm happy.
so come quick and soon
I've just got to know:
who are you,
my dream boy...

chemical swirls in my brain
they understand, they've held my hand
and you, I watched you
and very slowly, yet instantaneous
like a flash flood
-all at once-
you blew through my life
and took it all with you
and in that spilt second
I fell for you
and you have left, never to come back
so here you dwell, in the center
of my heart
in the depths of my dark mind
I'll see your face tonight
in my dreams; we unite

Because if I were to die on this day,
that might just be okay
Your Love has filled me
and I need nothing but You,
not even this oxygen I breathe
You're the Breath inside me,
only You last for Eternity
it's too late to light me on fire,
I've been lit by Your Passion
it's too late to drown,
I was suffocated by Your Undying Love
I can't fall anymore,
since I've fallen for You
these hands have touched the sky,
and Your hands have touched my heart
I'm stuck in the clouds,
and I'm never coming back down

Tears will flow, and hearts will ache
and all the teenage girls hearts,
will continue to break
The nights will pass slowly,
especially with him on your mind
he creeps into your dreams,
stealth and beauty
as if he belonged

So many words,
but I can't speak
up and out, it's hard to stand
without my own two feet
I won't take those take those
leaps of faith,
with no one there to catch my fall
if I break my own heart,
who will sew it back up again
the ideas are boundless
and the dreams overflowing
so why can't I express them
why can't I talk
why can't they understand
when will they notice
will they ever notice

My eyes, they can't believe
what they see
My ears, choke on
what they hear
My eyes and ears,
must be decieving me
because now in my heart,
I'm slowing dying
the slow poison of the world,
taking a drag on my soul
My mind, it slowly erodes
on all your venom, I choke
it's surrounding me, like the dark waters
it's drowning me
oh, my heart refuses to believe
what we see

I got up early one morning,
and rushed into the day.
I had so much to accomplish,
that I didn't have time to pray.
Problems just tumbled about me,
and heavier came each task.
"Why doesn't God help me?" I wondered.
He answered, "You didn't ask."
I wanted to see joy and beauty,
but the day toiled on, gray and bleak.
I wondered why God didn't show me,
He said, "But you didn't seek."
I tried to come into God's presence,
I used all my keys at the lock.
God gently and lovingly chided,
"My child, you didn't knock."

I woke up early this morning,
and paused before entering the day.
I had so much to accomplish
that I had to take some time to pray.

There I stood, on the edge of the cliff
high and windy, it laughed in my face
the waves roared at my faith
and the winds blew it away
the butterflies overcame me
and just when I thought I was steady,
my feet slipped out from under me
As I grabbed at the air I fell into dark waters,
the Light growing smaller
and smaller
the surface smacked me in the face
and the waves ripped at my body,
fighting for me, for my life
deep under the water
I reached for the surface
the Light, so far away...
yet it seemed to ever so vaguely
be calling my name
my heart was racing, and time, I was losing
the darkness thrashed, and I lost my focus
the fear was back, and it pulled me deeper
and deeper...

until I hit the surface and screamed for the Light,
kicking and gasping for air
the Light was brighter now
and smiled in my determination
my Faith grew larger, as the waves
grew smaller
screaming and reaching, choking on my efforts
the Light got closer, and the waters were calm
I looked up to the Light, only to see a Hand,
pulling me out of the black waters
not looking back, not even once,
I walked forward in the Light and the Warmth,
the Love was overtaking me now
but this time, I let myself drown

yes, I claim to be a follower of Christ, and I am
I truly am
and no, my attempts to follow Him are not always sufficient
as you can plainly see
but I am following Him, I am trying
so at times when it may seem that I am not
just remember that I am,
I am following Him with my whole heart
I’m just fighting for it
my heart, you see
there is an eternal war going on for it
my heart, and many others
so, if sometimes, many others and I
stumble
do not be short-sighted,
it’s just the war getting the better of us
but only for a little while
don’t count on the war making us surrender
for in the end, we shall succeed
why, you ask? how am I so sure?
because we have the very power that gives you life
on our side
and with that power, we’ll blow this world away
bring this world to their knees

I’m sick of this rat race
Low expectations
I’m going to live however I want
And I don’t want you there to tell me otherwise
Close my eyes, cover my ears, bite my tongue
Telling me what to do,
How to live
I refuse to do what millions have done before me,
I believe what I want to believe in
And I’ll do as I please,
Oh I’ll Close my mouth, cover my ears, and bite my tongue
So don’t invest in me,
Because I’ll wont come through
You don’t own me,
And my wishes will always come true,
Don’t close your mouth, cover your ears, or bite your tongue
You don’t have a  friend to lean on in me,
Because I’m all alone in this
Who is there to trust in a world so corrupt
I need a sign,
don’t know if I should let go
Oh I’ll let go.
I’ll let go.
Speak out, listen up, and tell the truth.
Because who really knows?
Who will ever really know…

I was walking down an old road
and I decided to rest
Behold, a rose,
snuggled there in the grass
The beauty was too much
for I quick to touch
With a slight *****
Behold, a thorn,
hidden behind that leaf,
The blood started to drip
as I looked down on that rose,
I had been too distracted
by the outside beauty
Too quick to judge,
not yet taken in reality
Now I walk away
my sore thumb throbbing,
remembering next time to think
of what's on the inside, a bit more
because it's not always what you bargained for

I'm writing the sound of your voice
the slow, steady beat of your heart
that eager look you always got
on your angelic face
I will always remember you,
you will never be forgotten

I'm hearing the silence of my voice
the slow, painful breaking of my heart
that solemn look,
in your angelically-crafted features
my heart aches for you
my mind yearns for you
and I?
I'd die for you
I will always remember you
you will never be forgotten

For humans, time is so short.
It practically means nothing.
We are born,
                We age,
                         We die.
Is this all I have to live for?
I would like something more
Just a bit more to live for
This empty feeling, just gets bigger
and I'm not getting any smaller
So tell me once more,
what is there to live for?

Critisize all you want, I won't be perfect
talk all you need, I won't change
laugh at me and I'll laugh back,
there's no shame in being myself
I'll show who I am
and you'll wear all your masks,
your backed into the corner
from all your insecurities
one day you'll fall,
along with all,
your whispers of cruel words
and that's all they are...
whispers; hardly heard.