I love a nightmare
I love a disease
She's a pain that haunts me
with her smile, lips and heart underneath

I loved her
and so she once me
For reasons unknown
She shrugged away
And went a path different, one astray
Although she has gone
My love stayed
What was my strength
Now a poison
Decaying me to rot
Tormenting, mending
violently ending- it me

Leave
Your smile gouges my eyes
Leave
Your laughter eats at my soul
Leave
You flower, I wish to see and not to see
I wish to hold, I wish would mold
Leave
And be
Be nothing to me

You, nightmare,
You disease
You
My poison-- is so pleasant to me.

I go to sleep
For when I Sleep
I dream of you
And in that dream
Your good to me
But when I wake
I'm back to what is true
And what's true is...
A nightmare named you

In this nightmare
You Ignore me
You erode me
You pass by
No hello, or good-bye
Not even a blink of an eye
I wish I were a stranger
Cause no one treats a stranger
The way you treat me
We both knew it was meant to be
But you chose a different way
Forsaking me
Alone to be
With nothing but a hole in my heart, and a dream
I look forward to everyday

On silver screen cinemas
Actors portray pain
Sobbing
weeping
Dripping tears
Like that of thunderstorm rain

Comedies - that's all they are
Comedies is all I see
Sick and twisted parodies
of me and those like me
Horror flicks
and gruesome pics
are simple things when compared

Agony
Yes Agony
Agony is your true name

What actor dare play my part
what actor dare say
"I Dare"
Because of you Agony
My bittersweet agony
Joy
is but a lost memory
Because of you.... Agony my sweet agony
Peace
Is a mystery- never clear
And my heart, my agony
Is a flame
flickering, riddled glimmer
Beating..... nevermore

Thanks to you- my sweet Agony

I know Hate

Falling ashes from the skies 
Overcome us like bitter lies 
We deserved so much more 
But All we got.
were crumbs from the floor
Speak the truth just for once 
Our hope, to us is all that counts

No more, no more, no more
Will We take this from you
No more, no more, no more
I'm taking  back what you stole from me
no more
I'm done listening to you 
What you promised me never came true
So now I'm taking back what Belongs to them and me

Me, me, me
What belongs to them and Me

Shouts and cries from the streets
A boy sees his father die
"Run son run, run for your life"
Another family torn apart
And for what?
Forrrrr?

All for a barrel  
In the name of liberty 
You crush our homes , destroy our lives
Labeling us, the enemy
For all the blind to see
No not me
I will fight 
I will fight
I will form, a new reality
We will fight
We will stand 
Lets take back our home land 
We're taking  back our homeland 
We're taking back what belongs to you and me

I'm a sinner and a saint 
I'm a struggling man 
Do right when right is wrong 
I live only to die again

King of nothing
King of no one
King of no mans land 
Fighting wars that never end
Living lives no one will contend
"Struggle" a noose around my neck
Always tight- never fatal
This was always my life, straight from the cradle
Flesh with a soul
Soul without a mind
Existence trapt between space and time


The doors open, here I go.
Another day with the wicked, Lonely, and cold.
Every sinner, every saint.
Every "he", every "they"

I am the one they point their finger to
I am The hungry
The unwanted by you
The addict enslaved
The drunk on the street
The past out -
Week after week

Who am I- I have no name
My name is nameless 
My life is lifeless 
My love never was

My heart has stopped
Met its end
I am now, the dead. 
-
The Rotting,
The unwanted
The was

And
As in life, so in death.
I am The subject --
of everyone's ignore

think again, if you think- you got a chance with me
I am, what I am- and that's the way i'll always be
I'm onerough, tough,
monstrosity
-You, can't, ever defeat me
look around, tell me what do you see.
where's your friends, no one, it's just you and me
It is, what it is
and this is happening
been a long time
finally your time is up
throw em up
let's see what's up

Think again, if you think- you got a shot at me
Your fast,--- but not fast enough
This story's been going on way to long
You've had your fun, good run- now look to me
This- ain't, no happy ending
So- you, best stop pretending
BANG, BANG, POW, POW
Look at you now
Whatever happend to that power you were talking about
- it's a false, bent, skewed reality
Keep- In- Mind
it was you
who came
knocking at my door
KNOCK, KNOCK
Whose that?
Me
Now I'm back for more
NO NO
go away,
Let me go
Let me be
WHAT DID YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN
DID YOU THINK  YOU WERE IN CONTROL
when its me versus you, you'll always lose
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You can't ever beat me
Look around and see
You got no one, everybody gone
it is, what- it-is
You can't handle this
You got no one,
All your friends are gone.
All your friends are gone
All your friends are

Go home little one, run back, run away
Think twice, when you think,
When you cross my way
Im a cold, harsh, dark reality
I am, what I am, and that's the way it'll always be
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WHO AM I YOU ASK
IT'S FUNNY YOU SHOULD KNOW
- IM THE MISTAKE YOU MADE
-THE BOTTLE OF *****
- THE DRUGS YOU HIDE
- THE REASON YOU LIED
I AM
I AM
I

THE DOG YOU FEED
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THE DOG YOU FEED
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THE DOG YOU---