Lets make up tonight
Let the storm alleviate the pain
I wanna wake up next to you listening to the rain
I love the way the sky lights up at night
The lightning illuminating
The rain rejuvenating
Never out of mind, always out of sight
Staring out my window watching the sky
Imagining the day I get out, and say goodbye
I wanna make up with you tonight.

Cigarettes.
Why are they so soothing when were alone?
The quiet of the night air...
The burning fizzle of the paper is the only sound
If your listening you can hear them.
Your lungs.
But why should you listen?
When you listen to your heart where does that get you?
Broken.
It's just another *****...
and you're just another man.
Only difference,
I dont need you in my life.

One day I'm gonna forget all about you and this place.
The second I see you its all gonna come back.
And I'll remember why I wanted to forget...  
But for now I still think of you once a day
soon that will dissipate.
To think I could have loved you...
Silly me.
Why?
You're not worth what I have to offer.
My standard of myself has lowered
therefore so has what I feel I deserve.
But I will regain my confidence,
my strength,
my respect,
and my dignity.
I will not let this town win.
I must stay strong and true.
I have to get back on track.
If not I fear the right path with soon become overgrown with the roots of my poor decisions and misjudgment.
And all that will be left is one dark road to a predictable future,
a light at the end.
Keep my roads clear.
Keep my skies open.
Save myself,
save my soul,
save my dreams...

If he ever once asked his people
what it is they wish to believe in
the answers may surprise him.
Maybe they would wish for an absolution in death...
Why are humans so fascinated with death?
We fear it, we crave it, we provide it,
yet we can never experience it.
We can only become death.
Once we become death where is our life?
Death is the gift of life, its never an end.
Only a new beginning.

Its over
I'm free
you really never wanted me
now I can finally see
it took me a while, but I can finally see.
Where to go from here?
I must leave, I have no fear
I know you'll miss me my dear
but there's nothing left for me here
all I wanted was you near
now after I'm gone maybe you'll feel
I was the only one that was real
you made my open heart seal
you'll go on living not seeing the big deal
all I ever wanted was to make you feel
but you never will
not with me at least.

Ignorance is bliss
yet for you ignorance is a dish
you eat it for evry meal
walking tall thinkn your real
calm down honey
I'm not in it for the money
I want you time and your energy
your ******* me up mentally
I stick around for the affections
its obvious you don't feel the connection
why sleep alone if I can sleep with you?
trick myself for another night that what I feel is true
as soon as I'm gone
I'm gone
but when will I leave?
I guess ill wait and see...

Just because I'm an open book
doesn't mean there's nothing left to see.

                                              
                                                           The secrets that lie behind theses eyes...
                           ...the secrets I keep locked deep inside.

Things you'd never imagine dwell in me.

                                                            ­                               The doorways I've opened...
                                                                ­                                                ...the thoughts that came threw...

If you could see them.
If you only knew.

The secrets I hold.
The reasons why I'm always cold.
Why some stories I leave untold.

                                                        ­                                                                 ­         The ones you'll never hear...
                                                         ­                                                                 ­      the ones I keep locked away.

In fear of when those thoughts break through to the surface,
break through my fortress...

The devastation that will ensue?
My emotional regress?

So go ahead and take your best guess.
I dare you.
I will confess.
I'm sure you have secrets too.
We all have secrets we will keep until the day we are laid to rest.