**** I feel so stupid
Why didn't I listen
Why did I let it get this ******* far
I knew it shouldn't have been this hard
I almost let you in
I should have learned from back then
I almost gave you my trust
But I was blinded by your lust
I had a feeling you where playing a ******* game
I had a feeling you didn't feel the same
This is why I don't ******* trust anyone
From the start I should have run
I shouldn't have let it get this far
But I gave you the benefit of the doubt at the start
I thought you where honest
Now I feel so ******* useless
What did he give you that I couldn't give?
You are some one now I just can't forgive
Was I not good enough?
Why wasn't I good enough?
I've lost all love
I just feel so stupid
Why didn't I listen?

You see that man standing on the wall
Acting tough, thinking he's tall
He got a gun with 2 grams in his pocket
That old lady got 5 keys for her door just to unlock it
Scared someone gonna break in and steal her gold lockets
That's the corner where my boy got shot and passed away
That house they raided, took my other friend the next day
That house has been shot more then we can count
This is the place they make hood movies about
In these streets you can pray for the Lord but he can't hear
It's been a daily routine, there's no more fear
They broke into my neighbors house and stabbed him
Only to steal his car for his rims
I've seen mothers cry
I've seen sons and daughters die
I've seen fathers lie
Saying they'll come home before the sun rise
But instead get a call saying they're not coming home
Saying their last goodbyes over the phone
Every night you can hear gun shots or sirens
Around here, there is no silence
It's a place where people struggle to survive
Where inocent kids get caught in drive-bys
It's where it's rare to see someone pass 25
Where dreams never stay alive
It's a life we try to run from and hide
That's what it's like growing up on the south side

Life is beautiful
Not perfect but we all have our own rituals
We wake up and do what we got to do
How far we'd get from where we once where who'd knew
But there is still along way we got to go
And what life will bring us we will never know
But life is beautiful
There are so many things we got to learn about it still
Every day is a new experience
A lot more than what we knew back then
We were only kids
Just having fun even if they where sins
Life is beautiful
But at the same time it can be so cruel

Before you came into my life
All happiness inside me had began to die
Than you came out the blue
Resurrected what I thought would never be true
Brought that feeling back in me
And I just don't know how that could be
You forced your way in
How did you get under my skin?
But I'm glad you did
There's no one out there like you I'll admit
And I'm not afraid to tell you how I feel
Without you knowing, you helped me heal
You took away the pain
Washed it all away like the rain
But then you said you only wanted to be just friends
I was afraid to lose you so I said yeah but this will soon end
I don't know how to win you back
Those words hurt and then everything went black
Afraid to give it a chance because of someone from the past
But you started this, I was just trying to make it last
At the start we where both all in
Then it was just me, now I'm wondering what happened
**** this ****
That's why I don't let anyone close, I hate it
Where you just a lesson I needed to learn?
Or maybe you where a blessing I have yet to earn
The happiness you made me feel
It just all felt so unreal
That's why I didn't want to let go
But you ended it, now I just don't know
How long will this hurt?
Right now I just feel so subvert

I thought you where my "happily ever after"
But you ended up being the worst disaster
I gave you everything I had to offer
And you took it all and stood there watching me suffer