Chilling feelings run down my spine
Like juice from a grape vine
Fear in control of my mind
My spirit, no longer mine

Is she about to pull the plug?
(is my flaw that bad)
Is there no right in my wrong?
(this is just sad)

I'm always at fault
Never her fault
Was what I thought
So my apologies I brought
To appease her hurt

I'm at it again
Nagging again
Complaining again
Frustrated again

I crave attention too
Not only you do
This is supposed to be two sided
But you're a one way traffic

You paint me the villain
And you the saint
I'm not to expect too much
But you expect much from me

Your vile lips lie they love me
Your actions are on the contrary

Is it wrong to be faithful and true?
Is it wrong to give and expect in return?
Is it wrong to give roses of red only to get violets of blue?
Is love meant to be G-I-G-O or forever young?

I'm I mixing up things
Or can't see the picture clearly cos im in the frame?
Let go of this feeling
And quest for a new soul mate?

drops pen
sobs
*writing again....

These are my questions
This is my lamentation.

Weird is the new me
So you freaks should let me be
Darkness is what I emit
I'm not like thee
Different is always criticised
So why do my demons need to be exorcised?

They are beastly creatures
This is not your nature
You a kind loving soul
Well that was me ages ago
Welcome to the new upgraded version 2.0

When I was misunderstood where were you?
You also tongue lashed me too
I found solace in the dark corner
The demons became my brothers

You forsook me telling me you needed a break
You words piercing me deep within like a stake
I walked my lonely path in tears
While you wined and dined with friends
I was welcomed to an esoteric community
Lifted of my burdens and guilt

Now the veils over your eyes are torn
The old me you knew is gone
You want me back
This gear can't hit reverse

You hope I find my way soon
You pray I find my way back to you

My ship has set sail
It'll be a miracle if I return sane
But if you willing to wait
I just might find my way
.
Back
.
To
.
You

I speak of Friends, I speak of Foes
I bathe in circumstances with the soap of Woe
Like the pains of a woman in labour my spirit Bellows
Like a rock cast into the sea my mind is drowned in my Throes
At peace I was with myself like a gentle Dove
Like a baby I slept in my secure Abode
G‎entle like the wind was the personality I Drove
Transparently clear like the heavens Above
The 'Devils' came disguised in their Cloak
To extinguish my light with their thick suffocating Smoke
Fed me with fear till my throat began to Choke!
I was almost absorbed like Garri left to Soak
But for the love of the Father over my Soul
And the prayer of a Mother over her Own
In my whole being the seed had been Sown
There 're people i'm glad I know and some I wish I never had Known.

Like carefree kids we played
Singing and dancing in the rain
Anticipating each day
Couldn't bare to stay away
From each other? No way
Emotionally attached to each other
Envisaging a future together
Woven of many fibres
Even a weavon wasn't tighter
My metre was broken, my joy knew no bounds
My heart skips a beat, ****! I love the sound
The complete that makes my incomplete complete, I've found
In this romantic pool, I wish to drown
My heart I give to you
All of me belongs to all of you
There's nothing I wouldn't do
There's nothing I couldn't do
Careless promises we made
To love each other till we fade
Come hell or high waters
We will forever be lovers
I'll starve, to see you filled
To see you happy I'll bleed
I'll cater for your every need
I'll treat you like royal beads
My capillary, arteries and veins
Were designed to suit your taste
I'll be your Paloma you'll be my Diego
My sugar banana and Avocado
Then I had a deep cut, was bleeding profusely
Stitches and bandages couldn't help unfortunately
I wept uncontrollably
Cos I was shattered internally
What we love hurts us the most
A statement I just got to know
My mind wandered from coast to coast
Grief had taken over my soul
How could this happen to me
How could I be a victim to this
How was I careless
This is arrant nonsense
Was I blind
Were there scales over my eyes
Did I ignore the signs
Did I want to believe all was fine
It was like I would never recover
It was like the wound won't heal
It was like it would last an eternity
It was like respite won't be
The wounds closed up, all that was left was the scar
A painful reminder of a broken heart
Injuries happen Tis inevitable
But the scars reminds us Tis conquerable.