nothing changes
if
nothing changes

the pain in your eyes
are the shadows of your past,
like storm clouds passing

119 days,
2,856 hours,
171,360 minuets,
10,281,600 seconds,
and i still think of you.
I remember everything so vividly;
my heart pounds within my chest
as glass begins to shatter,
a stream of tears begin to fall,
that is when you let go.
while I wish
to hate you,
I find myself missing you.
and sometimes I wonder,
do you still think of me.

I ignored others for you.
You ignored me for others.
I fought for us,
you gave up.
I waited for you,
you moved on a week later.
I saw a future,
you saw an expiration date.
I was in love,
you were lonely.
I gave my all,
you gave the bare minimum.
I was honest,
you were lying.
I gave you my heart,
you destroyed it.
don't you dare say
we are the same because
while I was breaking,
you were with her.
When I sought understanding,
you sought lust.
While I was hating myself,
you found a quick fix.
When I let you in,
you gave up.
We are not the same.

can’t you see darling,
you broke me.

if he wanted to,
he would.

you can tell when someone is in love
by looking at their eyes.
I know because
the way you looked at her
was a way I had never
seen you look at me.
it was as if she created the stars in the sky.
you were left in awe,
while I was unaware of it all.

so many people
are in love
but not together.
&
so many people
are together
but not in love.

you never cared.
if you did,
you would have
never left.