Why are we confident
In the sea of people
But drown
In the drops of intimacy

I find beauty in the mundane
I look at the leaves lusting above
Letting the light through
To rest on your scars
painting a map of your life
And so simply,
I find beauty in you.

These silences are screaming
loudly
telling you
I have everything to say

I want you
But slowly
Like a good wine
The aroma pouring into our times
Ageing it
with patient desperation

I want to savour you
Like the moments that led up to now
And these, I'll remember
when I leave your lips
Reminding me why those who left
did

I thought it was your affection
Like seeing a loved one after a long time
I gave you the benefit of the doubt
That was not okay

But affection had never touched me like this before
Your hand on my waist
Tight
No this doesn't feel right
That was not okay

I leaned away
And you closer
And I said it was good to see you again
Uncle
(That's how interactions end, right?)
That was not okay

I smiled screaming silently
I couldn't disrespect
Someone older
Wiser
Family
This was not okay

You leaned in
And kissed my neck
Ate it
With my trust
Of men
Like you
That was not okay

And now I'm not okay