This pain sinks into my skin,
I'm swimming in a lagoon full of memories of you,
My chest craves a heart beat to intertwine with my own,
I'm so alone,
In this freezing temperature,
All I can think about is your soft touch on my skin,
I'm missing you as much as my veins miss the blade.

Your eyes remind me of a car crash,
I should not be looking but I can't seem to turn away,
You're in so much pain,
I can feel your insides weeping for someone to save you,
I've been swimming in the Arctic Ocean searching for you,
I'm so cold and I can feel flames between us,
You're dying from all the sadness filling into your lungs,
I'm afraid that it's too late to be able to pump the water out of you,
Your voice reminds me of my childhood,
Innocent but so miserable,
If we die here tonight we can sink like stones under the moon light,
If we die here at least we'll be intertwined and not alone.

Your essence hit me harder than an ocean wave hit the shore line,
My aching soul is manifesting a storm,
The tides are washing up the land,
The ground is screaming your name,
The stars are melting in your hands,
You are the moon,
You are the air that I breathe,
You are my solar plexus.

I can feel this insomnia digging into my bones,
I can feel the walls laughing at me while I sink into my bed,
I can feel comets falling into my skin,
My brain is constructing the darkness into supernovae's,
I'm becoming to realize my acquaintances are all in my head,
I've had so little sleep that my grip on reality and emotions have left me,
The planets are spinning and here I am still waiting,
The nights become longer and my body has become weaker,
If I had the ability to dream I would hope the sun rises,
The darkness has imprinted me to believe that the light is fictional.

I hate how your memory is stitched onto my veins,
I spent all day in bed trying to scrub you off my skin,
I spent all night trying to escape these shadows,
I can't seem to allow myself to let you walk towards the light,
I'm waiting for something that's never existed,
It's so cold here and I can't feel my heart beat anymore,
It's so loud here and I can't hear myself think anymore,
I spent all year hoping to stop this feeling of regret,
I blame myself for all that pain you conjured,
The creature in my bloodstream chews me up,
I can't feel the blood flow through my veins anymore,
I can't hear the strange voices anymore.

I have so much happiness in my veins,
If I was to cut myself id bleed enlightenment,
I have so much compassion in my bones,
If I were to die I hope a piece of me remained with you,
I have so much appreciation in my eyes,
If I were to go blind my dreams would be full of memories of you.

In a world where time didn't exist,
Your funeral took place,
You looked so innocent and pure,
You didn't look miserable anymore,
The atmosphere was weeping your name,
That moment something in me snapped,
In a world where time didn't exist,
I begged for you to come back,
Flowers grew over your grave,
The memory of you lingered,
You completely lost your mind,
You looked everywhere for it and no one was kind,
In a world where time didn't exist,
All I wanted was more time.

The grass isnt greener on the other side,
Its very dark and shadows linger worse than old lovers,
The sky isnt very majestic anymore but more dull and washed out,
The stars arent there anymore to keep you company when youre sad,
Youre just floating with no emotion pumping through your soul,
Youre just swimming in freezing water and you feel at home,
The grass is really sharp so please stay on the pavement.

I want to create something beautiful and pure within the darkness that lingers in your eyes,
I want to be the sigh of relief when you don’t wake up in the middle of the night in fear,
I want to be the space in between your fingers when you feel lonely,
I want to be your spine so I can always hold you together even when you feel like you’re falling apart.