Lejla

Lejla Jan 2014

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I'm here to document all the pain,
I'm here to write about the blood in my veins,
I'm here to depart from all the loneliness,
Please inhale me like you used to,
Consume me as your deadliest addiction,
Overdose on my affection,
You are the air that I breathe,
I am the dark side of the moon,
I am the last cigarette in between your teeth,
I am the scar tissue you regret,
I am the blizzard warnings,
I am the reason hurricanes are named after people like me,
Please forgive me,
Please appreciate me like you used to.

Lejla Jan 2014

Smother Me

I want to live in the deepest parts of your mind,
I want to be the reason behind it all,
I want to be the passion in your eyes,
Smother me,
I want to be the aching feeling in your body,
I want to be your muse,
Smother me,
I want to the touch in your finger tips,
I want to be the waves that are sent away,
I want to be the one that got away,
Consume me before I'm just a memory,
Smother me,
Smother me,
Confess your love for me.

Lejla Jan 2014

Better in the dark

I can feel this insomnia digging into my bones,
I can feel the walls laughing at me while I sink into my bed,
I can feel comets falling into my skin,
My brain is constructing the darkness into supernovae's,
I'm becoming to realize my acquaintances are all in my head,
I've had so little sleep that my grip on reality and emotions have left me,
The planets are spinning and here I am still waiting,
The nights become longer and my body has become weaker,
If I had the ability to dream I would hope the sun rises,
The darkness has imprinted me to believe that the light is fictional.

Lejla Jan 2014

Arctic Sadness

Your eyes remind me of a car crash,
I should not be looking but I can't seem to turn away,
You're in so much pain,
I can feel your insides weeping for someone to save you,
I've been swimming in the Arctic Ocean searching for you,
I'm so cold and I can feel flames between us,
You're dying from all the sadness filling into your lungs,
I'm afraid that it's too late to be able to pump the water out of you,
Your voice reminds me of my childhood,
Innocent but so miserable,
If we die here tonight we can sink like stones under the moon light,
If we die here at least we'll be intertwined and not alone.

Lejla Jan 2014

bloodstream

I hate how your memory is stitched onto my veins,
I spent all day in bed trying to scrub you off my skin,
I spent all night trying to escape these shadows,
I can't seem to allow myself to let you walk towards the light,
I'm waiting for something that's never existed,
It's so cold here and I can't feel my heart beat anymore,
It's so loud here and I can't hear myself think anymore,
I spent all year hoping to stop this feeling of regret,
I blame myself for all that pain you conjured,
The creature in my bloodstream chews me up,
I can't feel the blood flow through my veins anymore,
I can't hear the strange voices anymore.

Lejla Jan 2014

This ones for you bae

The light in my soul flares when you're on my mind,
I've been in this dark room for so long,
You cannot grow a garden in the dark,
Your significance is so natural I can feel the sun inside me,
The planets are orbiting against my skin,
The oxygen resembles your essence,
You're in my blood baby.

Lejla Jan 2014

enlightenment

I have so much happiness in my veins,
If I was to cut myself id bleed enlightenment,
I have so much compassion in my bones,
If I were to die I hope a piece of me remained with you,
I have so much appreciation in my eyes,
If I were to go blind my dreams would be full of memories of you.