it starts from January
continued by February
followed by March
and now it is April.

Happy poetry month;)

- a.e

3:53 AM in the morning
You came to my house
You knocked the door
You smile at me
Hoping that I will allow you to come in

3:54 AM in the morning
I closed the door
I ignored your knocks
I cried
Hoping that you will leave

Darling
You came with a dazzling smile
Even the stars couldn't shine as bright as yours
But above all that
You used to hurt me; a lot
Behind that smile
I saw the wickedness
Telling me that you will hurt me over again
Telling me to not to easily give up with your  unsang eyes
And my decision is
A good bye to 'us'.

- a.e

Quote said
fake things will fade away
but i know you will never astray
together we fight the bad rays
and shine all the way.

Heart said
love won't stay
truth will delay
till come the day
that day, anyway.

Soul said
.........
...............
i lost words that end with 'y' anyway
except for gay
and okay.

- a.e

Day by day
till im completely seventeen
went through so many unexpected things
fall in love, mostly
heartbroken, i guess
stay apart from my best buddy, oh lord
such a bitter life, i swear.

Im dipping slightly
to the corner of the darkness inside my room
thinking about life; my life
and all i could ever imagine are
dark paradise
dull life
full of sigh.

-a.e

Im sick of people being narrow-minded
saying bad things about others
while they don't have the idea that their life
is ******* dramatically pathetic and deteriorated
than those who they were talking about

Ordering others
Judging others

no he can't do that!
well who the hell are you to stops me?
yucks she's not beautiful
are you talking to the mirrors?
that guy is weak
judging a book by its cover?
ew her hair is messy
i guess it is not as messy as your ****** life?

Well played, player
but for once
for once
can you please
put your *** down
to the surface area of the chair
and think wisely
life rotates
you talk bad about others
they talk bad about you, too
life is irony, babe.

- a.e

For the sake of his broken heart and painful soul
he swear he will never turn back
he will never look back
he will never think back
of the hideous memories
that he is currently getting through
even if the voice is still calling him
to get it back in his arms

"help meeee........"

He is running away
far away from the voice
dismantling his tears, at the same time
he can't stay any longer
'cause he knows
the longer he listen to that voice
the wrecked he will be.

- a.e

"oh my lord.........."
he whispered
with a restricted voice
if it means to be, it will be*
he tries to convinces himself
again
again
and over again.

She's laughing
laughing with a guy way better than him
he knows it
and his watery eyes couldn't load
the melancholic drama anymore.

And at last
he decided to leave
to leave; not for the time being
but forever
yes, forever
without a goodbye...

She acted like it wasn't a big deal
when in actual fact
her heart was breaking
into a million pieces.

She's lonely
but not alone
she said, "stay strong..." to herself
even when the thoughts in her mind
is trying to **** her
quietly.

She smile to everybody
that trying to brings her down
to the earth's crust
'cause she knows
being strong is the only choice
left.

She wished in her heart
may time flies as fast as the tears
streaming down her fluffy cheeks
so she can get out from there
as soon as possible...

- a.e

Her smile is so radiant
like a bloomy  roses
and the sparkle in her eyes
was never meant to hurt anybody
she makes people laughs
she makes people happy
through her stupid jokes
although she knows
deep in her gloomy heart
she's not happy
at all.

And what's worse is
nobody notice her sorrow
that she hides
behind her smile...

- a.e

Is't only me
who miss
how we used
to be?

Is't only me
who miss
our memories?

Is't only me
who miss
the way we laughs
together?

Is't only me
who miss
our conversations?

Is't only me
who miss
us?

- a.e

Have you ever
feels like
you're running
from something
but you
literally
don't know
what is it...

Have you ever
feels like
you're sad
because of
something
but you
really
don't know
what is it...

Have you ever
feels like
everything is
drowning you
deeper and deeper
lower and lower
below and below
but you don't know
what is it...

- a.e

They said
you'll be
happy

They said
you'll
smile again

They said
you'll
never
get hurt

They said
you'll
never
cry again

But
they didn't
tell you
when is the time...

- a.e