I had forgotten you, or so it seems
Before you showed up within my dreams
You're the one constant in all the scenes
No one on Earth can explain what it means

The background was loud, the dialogue silent
My outlook is dim but imagery was vibrant
Usually my dreams are random, quick, and nimble
Now, you remain as a mainstay, a symbol

The obsession of you, the love and the passion
Stronger than anything you could imagine
Evidenced clear by attempts to completely...
Ignore clear evidence that you complete me

I wish I could ask how I could be conscious
With a mind that offers such unwanted responses
Until my admiration decides to vanish
I don't know how to move on or manage

Reach back
Smell the ancient cigarette smoke
On pages soaked
With the sweat of lost love

Cramped hand
Suppress bile rising like waves
Do not read
Better off to forget

Faded heart
Etched on the empty shell of memory
Forever burned
By your stolen embrace

I dreamt about how I wish
you were the boy you said
you'd be.

You crossed your T's you dotted your I's and your heart belonged to me.

Your touch was soft, you held me close, I felt your love, a love to boast
about and when it ended I had cried.

The boy I wished you were is gone.

You lied.