I am so very
tired, so tired it is
bone deep, inside me.

it is the type of
exhaustion that makes life hard,
and unbearable.

Yet I have miles to
go before I rest again,
for forevermore

I want to *******.
I want to make love to you.
I want to hold you.
I want to lie with you.
what do all these have
in common with each other?
you, because I am in love,
I love you, not like a brother,
but in the way that a man,
loves a woman, but you are,
like a powerful fan,
but you do not know how far,
I would go for you, do you?
to see you smile at me like that,
I hope that you find one who,
loves you like I, when you are fat,
he will have eyes only for,
you, and will not care,
when you will ask for more,
and we both know I won't tear,
that I won't come between,
you and he, no matter,
what a teen like me has seen,
I have always been your latter,
choice when you were looking,
for a happily-ever-after prince,
to be queen to his king,
but I will not, not mince,
my words, I set you free,
and I still regret it,
yet now I know you will be,
taking love by the bit.

weak of knee,
light of breath,
first nights free,
next she leaves

Words in my head,
they grow like vines,
they need to be fully spread,
and live in a line

It is every hearts desire,
to find that which dreams inspire.
It is every hearts desire,
to find their passions fire.

words begging for release
knowing, I hold the keys to peace,
They will not stop, not a lot,
even though I still shove them in the ***,
so they shall still always beg,
until I give them their free leg.

As I lie here,
I think of fear,
repressed for now,
but I don't know how.

I dream and crave,
a way to be brave,
and find a release,
to bring myself peace.

I want to lose,
but not to *****,
or to a knife,
to end my strife.

I want to surrender,
to her sure,
and find a new,
future like few