Tonight I am at a loss
A loss of
            Words, thoughts, myself

Another small piece of me gone
Locked away somewhere
Waiting to be rediscovered

Numbness comes next
Filling me to the brim
Making me lost

In limbo, surrounded by emptiness
I feel nothing.

He smelled like smoke & a sleepless night
I hugged his back, asked  if he was alright
He said he felt like ****
& took one more hit
From that cigarette of his.

I grabbed a smoke & sat to his left
His eyes weren't bright but still they were deft
He looked up at the sky
I saw his thoughts fly
I'd never seen him feel so blue

He said he missed home & this girl he once knew
I felt like crying, he felt that too
I sat there smoking, not knowing what to do
I began making sense of the truth

He held me close
but I could see
there was nothing left of "you & me"

He was in love with her & I with him
I felt my heart go completely dim

I went back inside
Hoped to die
& never woke up to see those brown eyes
I'd drifted in sleep
Counted too many sheep
Simply because there was no more "you & me"

I wanna go for a late night adventure...

& order fast food then drive to the nearest park & swing till we throw it all up..

we'll laugh & go smoke while we walk, looking up ever so often at the stars.

we'll clear our head of all the days misconceptions & we'll go home tired.

our minds will have been cleared by the night & we'll go into a dreamless sleep