There's a dryness in my throat
When I think of you
My heart speaks out in quick pulses
Its just that the pain dulls it

Hear my breath get faster
As a calmness washes over me
You've got my knees weak
At the slightest teasing whisper

This longing has taken its toll now
And the poet inside has turned into a court jester
Keeping the humor alive
Stoking the fire, hopelessly

This begging has gone on too long now
I need you in my arms more than my heart does

I miss the way the room lit up
When your eyes glanced mine
And you'd blush a little
And smile a bit

I still remember how you
Told me your hands were small
As an excuse to hold mine
And I could tell it felt right

If I trace back time
And do it all again
I'd make more memories
That could save me tonight

My note is a little too late
Because my heart died yesterday
When I couldn't feel the arms
From which bled my wrists, wrestling with death

Wide open eyes
As my tears drained my life

Its the lack of a sound
Of my throbbing heart
Enough of this pretending
Stealing doesn't come close to the damage you've done

This is the closest I've come
To being free from the shackles
Of your control
So let me go, I'll carry my words elsewhere

Let me drown into a sea of endless dreams
Where you can hear the whispers of circling waves
And the reddest sunlight bedazzles your mind
In the lilac clouds of the northern sky

Caught in a circle of despair
I'm unafraid of the waves
As the tides of the ocean creep up
Upon the horizon, there's a sun flickering

I want to feel the water drown me inside and out
If you'll see for a little longer
The weight gets heavier
That's tied around my ankles, filling the lungs

I'll be submerged in the vast expanse of time
So close to slipping into the night's tides, I am
Not to be found the next morning, sleeping with the fishes
You'll know that I had the time of life, exploring the ships

The waves with its shapely fingers called out
So that I swam a little more to feel alive
Even though the heart is heavy with sadness
My legs can't help but kick, out of breath

Out of breath
I waited for the storm
And its powerful onslaught of water
To bring me to a whimpering end

I want you in my arms
Nestled in, hugging my chest tight
I've made my share of bad decisions
But being with you isn't one of them

Your sweet fragrance fills me
Like a breeze on the street
Some feeling it is
Like the soul needs poetry

My fingers languish without your body
I can't taste the coffee anymore
It's bitter without you
No more young, fiery stares filled with sweetness

No more raw lips and kisses on the neck
Raw with hunger and thirsting for your presence
A hurt heart can't be healed
Without you marking your territory on my body

I feel safe with you
In your pain and suffering
I feel understood
In your beauty and physicality

I'm stuck in a daydream
When I'm without you
I'm running in a nightmare
When I'm without you

A sealed letter lays upon your shelf
Unopened for days at end
You're the only one with the key
So I call your name again

And I wonder what it says
We haven't spoken for days
The blues haven't gone away
You're the only one who ******* cares

If I come either in a box or a bag
And I don't want to live with the pain
In some ****** up way
You've carried me through this day

Unsealed
It made me cry to see you
Wish it all away
As the sun goes down far away

Ah, I see them
I see them, all clearly
Waking me up
From my last breath

Ah, I see them
Waking me up
From the dead
And you've thrown the key away