Blackbird singing in the dead of night,  
Raven calling from the sky
Bluebirds calling from summer
Seagulls squawking from the alley

I have found something I lost
The state of euphoria is crumbled as your heart breaks
I lost a time when life was simple, when wondering was lustful
Instead found a time of hardship and unsettled communities
Sometimes I think what if the yellow brick road never continued to Oz
And if the clouds were always supported by blue
Californication with out the fault.
A witness to the empty sky

I sit; I sit in a curled up ball of skin and tattoos
I sit; I sit naked on the floor of my shower
The water flowing over my rolls and dripping from my hair
You think you understand the haste of my rash conflictions
I try to live the lie out, I try to peruse the ever after
I hold the flame underneath the water, and wonder why I am cold?
How does the pain of life subside?
How do I become millions and then back to debt?
Opened my eyes under water, and I am freed of tears

Today is the day for the followed few
The ears of old and eyes of new
The fallen propaganda waves for notice
This ideal, this condominium – you chose it  
The pavement is harsh and burning
The trees need salvation: they’re yearning,
For the day of sun soaked shadows,
Not this boxed world framed from a window
Pick up your shoes: pull up your socks
Plan a plan, before it all just
stops

My mind worries, as my hands shake
I am a hamster in this wheel, running this race
The pace is quickening as my feet tap and tip
The cage is broken
As I become freed from this ****
The world is hollow
Cold and unforgiving
Outside of my cell
The ******* keep on living
Their teeth never clench
Their palms never shake
They just keep on walking
But never quicken their pace
My race quickens
As my blood pumps
My veins replace the oxygen
As the arteries gather the chunks

You made me fall in love with you
You made me fall in love with me
You got under my skin
You got into my head
I told you I would run
Run far, far away
I did
Twice
And now the phones are dead
Communication broke down
A mistake that’s not fixed
A sorry just will not break through
Something that only music heals
Something that can not be fixed
I really wish you were here
I wish it went down differently
I wish I could just walk to your door
And just kiss you, before you had time to shut it in my face
But I have to stop thinking about you
I HAVE to get you to go away now
Put you into a tiny box and forget you
But I cant
I just cant
And Facebook is asking if I want to be your friend

Its back to school again,
Back with these artsy people again.

Time to start learning again,
Time to create again.

Think again,
Conform again.

Last Year.

My glasses are foggy
There's water leaking from my eyes
There's a lump in my heart
And a pain in my chest

The subtle reminders of a heart broken and never found