i'd like to introduce
someone new to the mix

back when i broke the news
to my psychiatrist—
a cute, obtuse 'two shoes,
silly semanticist,

told me that drugs are bad
& called my friend a hack

audacity again...
pots calling kettles black.

it's nothing you haven't seen before.

what you love, I hate and
what you hate, I adore

tell me that you'll never
come knocking at my door

but if you do, tell me before
so we can do it all once more

i'd like to look pretty for you
but i'd love you even more

had you known
I am a woman

who sometimes
you'd deplore

hey baby.
I'm sorry we had to meet like this.

I wish I could wear pretty nightgowns
And frilly things

Instead, I'm in bed with night frowns
And silly thinks

you've limited yourself
to an ungodly extent

remember all those hours you spent
days, months, and years
with feelings, intense?
where everything was exciting
and all your senses made sense?

when did you migrate
to the polar-opposite-end?

how do i talk to you
without tearing us to shreds?

and are you really indifferent
if you now mourn
your own difference?

I feel neutral
My cat is purring
I have a type of love
And food
And a roof
Over my head

So why
Do I feel
So dead

I don't like sitting with myself
What is life
what is love
why is health

and if gratitude
depends on attitude
and art is what
life births itself

it's all too much
to think about
and suddenly
Heaven is hell

the only one
I care about
why, oh why
is it not myself

and if so
who do you live for
if nothing else

i don't know what you're up to tonight
i don't know what i'm up to most nights.

i ****** that guy the other night.
i couldn't tell you his name--first or last.
and i was ashamed to tell you at first--
but then it passed

and he doesn't care, or so it seems
and you are not there, so i'll stay here

ashamed and unabashed
by all my schemes