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Abigail Night Jun 2015
the moon is calling out my name
like she has already made her claim
if shes out at night i will stand and stare
i hope she doesn't care

i look to her for guidance
i ask her questions but only get silence  
but i feel like she still some how gives me answers

she looks over me
tells me who i could be

I'm in love with the moon
Abigail Night Jun 2015
and I am screaming as loudly and silently as i can
and i am crying as hard as i can with out letting a tear slip down my check
Abigail Night Jun 2015
smile for a picture
pose with your brother
be a good sister
wake up your mother
clean up the mister
our family isn't as perfect as it seems it is
Abigail Night Jun 2015
I want the world for you

But I'm still scared for us
Each day is coming closer to knowing you

and everyday I'm praying to a god that i know is not real
praying that i will be what you need
praying that i can truly know you

i want you to be happy
i never want you to cry
i don't want you to have depression
i don't want you to feel pain like i have

and i'm scared people will say your not worth it
but you are you are priceless
and i will never stop loving you

I will give you everything
my dying wish is you will be happy

Because you are my child, my baby, my life, a little piece of my soul.
Abigail Night Jun 2015
don't you remember when we were kids?
and we have so much energy we couldn't get rid of?
we were all smiles and giggles,
and our drawings were squiggles.
don't you remember?

i don't..
i was never one of them
i was a different type of gem.
i was told to sit and listen
not to make a frisson
not to make a noise in front of the judge and jury.
do this so we can hurry

don't remember them and make memories of me
forget memories from them and remember me
they left you i helped you means
she tried giving you a better life i stole you

she doesn't miss you means
you still mean the world to her
why don't you trust me means
do what i say

you don't miss her means
i don't care about you and her
shes gone and i'm here means
i'm the only one left

you weren't one of those kids
i always made you sit still and quiet
all your drawings were your signature that gave me your life
don't you remember?
it doesn't really rhyme, but whateva. tittle doesn't really match ether but whateva
Abigail Night May 2015
that day everyone ignored me
i couldn't see
i pretended i was fine till the night
where i wouldn't put up a fight

so i went down to the ocean
just going through the motion
i took all the pills i could find
it seemed fine in my mind

it was late
and i wanted this to be fate
i was full of hate

so i swam out as far as i could
more then i should
i let go of all my breath
so i could seek my death
i swam down
i was in a well known Florida town

and i smiled as my vision turned black
and slipped through the crack

but i woke up!
i had only managed to sip from death's cup
and i screamed from anger
and i was alive
it was all for nothing, that dive
i didn't want this life anymore
i was curled up on the beach floor
wanting to to slip through life's door

but that day everyone ignored me wouldn't be the last
Abigail Night May 2015
that year i fell
it felt like hell
not the way you think
it happened in a blink

i felt like everyone hated me
i wish i could have made you see
that i hated my self too
all the things i went through

do you know how many times i tried?
how many times i cried?
i was alone and scared
i felt impaired.

i fell
into a hell
and was broken,
unspoken

i never would be fully fixed
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