Silence roars like a stormy sea and stirs the waters of the mind,
making nightmares and reality become intertwined.
All fears and insecurities come to life,
causing slashes with the knife.
They hit the mind like giant waves crashing against a dinghy
lost and alone in the middle of a wild sea.
Gasping for air as the waves crash down,
there is no wish of surviving - only the wish to drown.
Dripping blood and painful breath
are hoped to be the sign of death,
but opened eyes realize, unfortunately,
despite how real it all may seem,
death was just an evil dream.
Scars are proof of all the pain that will surely come again
to embed how it feels to know that all the nightmares were real.

I long to see you
smiling, laughing
to look into your eyes

I yearn for that one moment
when I gave you what you wanted
and all time seemed to stop
everything was perfect

I desperately want to say
how much I love you
how much I miss you
that I think about
always

But none of this will happen
the right words – right time
it never comes
You don’t view me the way I do you

I will always be yours,
**But you will never be mine.