Color me black.
Show me no passion.
Bring me back,
In no obvious fashion.
The dreams of life are to real
So are theses feelings of death you feel,
The world is dead,
Hollow words said,
Madness plagues you,
Everything you know,
Was a lie,
Its time,
To tell the truth,
You want to die
From what you've been through,
But stay strong
If not for you then for me
Play our love song,
We were ment to be...

I feel complete,
Finally at ease,
Whenever her eyes fall apon me
They take me back
To school, in math
Where my true love sits Everyday in the back.

3 Words
No meaning
Until i felt this feeling.

1 Girl
2 Worlds
Until she became my baby.

Hearts racing,
Its time,
To make this girl mine.

But i was struck
By her beauty.
I knew i wasn't Worthy
But she didn't,
She insisted
To sit in the back with her.

Oh god!
Oh no!
"What should i say?"
"We don't know,
Play it cool."
"But i can't!"
"Stop stuttering you fool!
Make her laugh!"
She ask,
"You got any plans after school?"

This is it,
The start
To win this beautys heart,
Because love is like a flame
All you need is a spark.
So i answer

"Not right now you have anything in mind?"
she Replied but i heard nothing because i was lost in her eyes.
"I'm sorry i didn't hear a word you just said."
She asked again
"You wanna hangout with me and my boyfriend?
You're really funny,
I think you guys would be really good friends"

Aw ******!
****, ive run out of time!
This lucky ******* is stoping me from calling her mine.
But that's ok,
I can wait,
Faithfully
I know with a little time i can make her love me.

A month goes by
She still haunts my mind
I live for math
Just so i can look into her eyes.
I think that's what got me.
So beautiful,
I've never seen perfection befor
And here it is
Standing infront of my classroom door
She is everything I've ever wanted and more..
And she was single
Haha i felt so Convoluted an evil.
Being the creepy friend that prays that her relationship fails
But i needed her
Just like how we Humans need air,
And these dreams,
Of running my hands through her hair.
I can do this.
I can tell her how I've felt,
I just hope that i don't make a fool of myself.
So i told her;
" I can't help myself will you be mine?
Ever since I first met you you've haunted my mind,
And even when i sleep, you're there in my dreams.
So i have but one question,
Will you go out with me?"




Its been a year and a month,
Since i pulled that stunt
And our love has begun anew.

And this was fate
So i took the bait
"I need to have a talk with you"
I got down on one knee,
She looks down at me
And we both knew that this was our Destiny.

"3 words,
No meaning,
Until i felt this feeling.

2 eyes,
1 thought,
You're all ill ever want.

2 Hearts,
1 dream,
And this chance to start our family.

Lets both forget
And take these steps
So we can finally be happy.

We both can see
Were ment to be
So baby,
Will you marry me?"

"So my lesson to you Noah,
Just remember what i told ya,
Never be afraid to ask
Because that's how i met your mother in math class."

If only
The Lord
let's me go and just die.
The smile on my face would be more then disguise.
And my kids wanna know
"Mommy where did dad go?"
But they will never knoooow.
If only if only.

Crows follow me,
The sky is macabre.
I crave what's not here
Death creeps near..
"The cross is upside down."
"I know my dear."
she thinks I'm stupid?
I should know i put it there.
What's wrong
just feels so right.
tribal war song
"We leave here tonight."
says the angel to my right
He's dressed in all white
"And together we both go into the light"
If its my time to go
its time to go,
Who am i to tell god no?
but the light,
its so bright!
i can't see the Angel anymore..
at the end of the light is a tall bright red door.
With child-like wonder i go to explore
behind the red door,
its a jet black room with no Windows or floors.
just black empty space and nothing more.
Wait there's two red light,
same as the door
but they were getting closer
it was hard to ignore
and as i stared longer ****!
vanished the door
Purgatory,just darkness and nothing more..
but the red lights
they're not bright but they burn
and off in the distance a voice could be heard.....

It feels like eternity,
Yet time doesn't exist.
There's no one here but me
And the darkness is endless.
I have no will to live,
But yet I'm already dead
There's nothing else to give
With so much left unsaid.
I miss my kids,
I miss my wife,
And what we did,
I miss my life!
But its gone now..
I only want to get out
But i don't know how.

Is this heaven or hell?
Or my spiritual prison?
Its hard to tell
Failed lifes ambitious.
I regret so much
Yet i blame god
Blames my Crutch
I've been through so much.

I'm here for a reason
like changes of the season
I'm cold and hollow
I rejected god.
"i will not follow!"
"Well my child, your soul is mine
Its my choice to **** u for the rest of time
But i pityed you
So this is where i sent you
Purgatory.
Your fate is being decided.
By my Council of chosen Disciples.
Now praise my name and repent ur sins,
I wish to heal you not send you to the Devil's Den"
"I wish not to Conform,
I know your real,
But your not my lord
I don't know how to feel."
"My dearest son, don't you understand?
All your life you have always put your faith in men
But your Happiness doesn't come from them,
it comes from me.
This is your last chance,
Ive shown you the light so you can finally see."

This is it
my perfect bliss
the perfect kiss
at the end of her ruby lip stick
now picture this.
a young man who had fallen inlove
age 16, the protagonist of this story thought he had finally won.
the jackpot.
well that's a thought,
his perfect world came crumbling down when his girl got caught,
straight leaning.
going into bed with other men
right then he felt his mind start to break and mend.
he was broken,
A shell,
A pain unspoken.
he's now in hell,
heartless,
with his pride stolen.
thoughts of suicide Plague his mind,
The voices in his head screaming "DO IT NOWS YOUR TIME!"
but he was scared,
and he cared,
about his family.
why should they suffer because he discovered true insanity?
now what's next?
the steps,
to full recovery?
he doesn't want pills or to sit for hours in therapy.
there's only one way to make what's wrong right,
go out in the night, with this knife, and take this man's life.
that's what they said
the voices,
inside my head.
its him or me!
i thought about it last night iwhile i layed in bed.
the only way to stop these voices inside my head,
is ether **** him dead or to take my own life instead!
I CAN'T DO IT!
lets face it,
I'm not a real man,
those ******* voices telling me "THIS ACT CAN NOT STAND!
NOW GO OUT AND RETAIN YOUR HONOR!
YOU THINK HE GAVE A **** ABOUT YOU WHILE HE ****** HER?!"
this is it.
its time.
to tie the knouse,
and hang from this celing fan until my face turns blue.
"**** THAT! LETS GO AND **** HIS MOM,
IN FRONT OF HIM AND WE CAN MAKE THIS A PERSONAL ISSUE!"
in hindsight,i couldve made a better choice.
Now I'm in jail, with no bail, and alone with this voice.
i tell the judge "I HAVE NO REGRETS, WELL MABEY ONE.
I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO GET MY HANDS ON HER ONLY SON.
BUT ILL WAIT 100 YEARS AND ROT IN THAT CELL
FOR THAT FAITHFUL DAY WHEN I MEET THAT SORRY ******* IN HELL..."

This pen and paper are mocking me.
showing my many flaws.
This cause is a lost
my hand is cramping.
**** this writers block!
I know there's somthing in my soul,
a story to share with you all.
But alas, I'm still lost,
trying to fix this writers block.
mabey a tale of true love perhaps!
No, that's a bore and we've already heard them all.
Mabey an Odyssey of a powerful kingdoms fall?
But even if i try,
ii can not deny
i don't know where to start,
a total brain ****.
so my brother and sisters!
Lets all work around the clock,
And mabey together we can defeat our one true Enemy
writers block.