My thoughts are like parasites
Eating away at my mind.
I'm afraid I can no longer hide.
My demons are pouring out
And I'm to blame.
I should of hidden them better
And now I feel ashamed.
You see I'm a sinner
And the worst kind.
I do things and think of things
That would never cross your mind.
I've done something terrible
But im not sure what.
I'm afraid I've completely
Avoided it until now.
I'm scared to know what it is
I'm scared to figure this out.
When I close my eyes I see him
Coming at me like some
Wild animal.
His face is dark
His eyes are darker.
His grin is fragile
Like one of a child's.
I know him and what he is
But I do not know his name.
This man is where my demons began
And yet I'm still not sure how.
My walls are braking
There crumbling down.
Soon everyone will know the real me
And they won't care how
I got this way.
They will all say I'm crazy.
But maybe,
I am.

You were just about to leave
When I asked you to stay one more night with me.
You looked so confused
You had just told me that we were done.
But still I was not going to give up.
We were laying so close
That night
My face buried in your chest.
Telling you how much I love you even till
This day I will not forget
When you looked at me and said,
"I can't be your friend,
I can't be your boyfriend,
So..."
You looked right into my eyes
"Will you marry me "
I was so shocked and happy at the same time
And I know you knew this
When the tears fell from my eyes.
I said yes
But of course I did.
That day you proved to me how much you
Love me,
And I know after I said yes I had proved my
Love for you.

She'll wait up all night just to hear your voice
She'll rub your back and kiss your neck after you get home.
She tells you the things you want to hear
And
All the things you need to.
She loves you so very much and she will
Always need you
No matter how bad the fights get or
The arguments.
She'll always come back,
Because your the only one she wants
To hold.
So please don't push her away
Just hold her
And tell her that everything will be
Okay.

Girls are called fat, ugly
***** and ******.
But nobody sees
What goes on behind
Closed doors
Some of us girls
Cut
Others use thing that are hot to the touch.
There's so many ways to give
Yourself pain.
Most of us cry some of us hold it in
But we all know
No matter where we go
It will just began again.
We are stronger than you think
But you have to remember
Everyone brakes.
So if you see us as weak
Or maybe even disgusting
Because we inflict harm on our selves.
Just keep in mind
We didn't want this
Not at all
It's you nasty rude
Ungrateful
People that brought
Us to fall
If you find happiness in this
Well then bless your soul
Cause I think God will look down on
You not us
But you for braking our souls.