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Abby Payne Apr 2015
I'm nothing more than a pile of ashes.
Being burnt and burnt again.
Never having control of how I want to be.
Always being the one stepped on to be put out.
Abby Payne Jan 2015
The love of my life causes my tears to fall every night.
And the hard part is I can't even tell him.
I don't want to ruin the relationship he got right after we ended.
What hurts the most is knowing I was never good enough.
Abby Payne Jan 2015
Forever is a lie that every one tells
Abby Payne Jan 2015
I've shed a sea of salty tears that flood the world. And not even the fish survived.
Abby Payne Dec 2014
On what seemed like the happiest day of all,
Turned into the day that I will start to fall.
So on that one beautifully horrid Christmas eve,
you turned and took your leave.
But There was something I could not tell you.
with you gone, my thoughts, my happiness will begin to subdue.
you see,
there are monsters that live deep inside of me.
with them growing stronger by my pain and fear,
they will start to tear me apart beginning with a single tear.
My monsters feed on my despair, but run in fear when I find a smile rising across my face.
You gave me happiness, something to think about instead of the monsters filling my mind.
You gave me hope; something that I needed to find.
Unfortunately nothing lasts for long,
but your happiness is more dear to me than my own.
Win the war that you're fighting.
If you ever see me later in life,
remember me as I was in your memories.
not the way you should see me.
For I may not know what I will be.
With you in my life coming coming to an end,
Let the fear and darkness start to ascend.
Abby Payne Dec 2014
Not a word has gone by, not the sound of a person's breath; nor a the sons of their heart beat. Silence is what I'm afraid of; but yet, it's gives me solitude. I guess that means there are different kinds of quietness.  What I'm afraid of the most is when it will be silent forever. When I well never be able to hear the sweet sounds of their voice, witness the words they say. Not even watch the beautiful mess I just happened to fall in love with. Silence is what I'm scared of, not that I might lose them forever; I can handle that. But I cannot stand listening to the nothingness that has has been bestowed upon me. Silence is the death that is soon to come to me.
Abby Payne Jun 2014
January 20, 2014; 8:00 p.m.
I still remember this moment like it just happened.
I till feel all the emotions that i felt.
I was the happiest person in the world.
Only if i knew what was to come, I could've saved myself from all the pain.
Only if i knew that after tomorrow i'd lose everything i ever cared about.
Yes, everything is gone now.
But yet, it is all my fault.
If only i would've stopped him from hurting himself over me that next day.
I don't know if i can ever fix anything i did wrong.
I don't even know half the stuff i did wrong.
Its been six months.
There's so many questions left unanswered.
Why I still love him.
Why i still care. Why I;m still trying after all this time.
Why i cant let it go.
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