All night he begs
For salvation to come
To feel the warmth of her body
The softness of her lips

He screams and crys
Urning for the feeling of love
To replace this new found hole
Which has left his heart broken

What more must he do
He claws and crys hoping for change
Hoping that this isn't the end
He can't give up

She begins to cry
Wanting him back
Wishing it didn't have to be this way
She works and fights her heart

But she can't win
Her heart knows its what she needs
It knows what they both need
Salvation from each other

For each other

My anger is malnourished
Your here to fill my rage

Keep going
On and on

You don't know
You have no idea

Get ready to feel the end
The end of it all

Turn around
Hold out your hand
Take it. Take it from me. Go. Do it. Now.

NOW TAKE YOUR ****
AND RUN *****

How does it feel?
To rot away in the ground?

I hope the cancer eats you alive
And spits out your worthless soul

*****

"I hate people"

Lies
Covering up lies

You say we can't be
Because you can't
Keep lieing to my face
Over and over

So the only way out
For you
Is to lie
To push more lies than before
To claim hate
anger
depise
distrust

To state how bad I am
my nothingness
my meaningless life
and how he is everything you've ever wanted

You answer your problem of lieing
with more lies
and claim to save me

But you can't even save yourself
From your own sadistic ways

Stop claiming confusion
Then love
Then hate
Then Dispair

Just stop
Lieing
Cheating
Stealing
****** my mind
and my emotions

And just give me what I want

Give me back my happy life

With or without you

This is were I belong
The energy
The power
The raw emotion
Pouring out of the souls
Of those who love
Cherish
Appreciate
The work
Feelings
Effort
Of those that stand before us
Here I am
Standing together
with my brothers and sisters
In chaos
and harmony

This is the apocalypse

And the second coming

I am my own person
I have my own thoughts
I only need me in this world
Empowered on hate
Fueled by desire
To prove all of them wrong
I am me

SO

**** ALL OF YOU

Who push me back
up against societys wall
I've got a bullet with your name on it
coming out of a 44

Why
Why
why
why
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

How could you do this to me
Tonight of all ******* nights
I slaved my body and soul for you
and all you want to do is ******* FIGHT

I'm sick and tired of being played
I'm sick and tired of these stupid games
Grow the **** up
AND STOP YOUR *******


LIEING

My mind is running
pacing back and forth
the anxiety eating away my soul
I need to get out
Let me out

LET ME OUT

Please just let this stress go
Take out the pain
Just stop
Please just ******* stop
My soul can't take this much agony
I don't know what to do

Someone give me answers
Give me a sign
Tell me why this pain
has to shape my life
Why it never seems to end

Tell me what I did wrong
Empowerment only goes so far

This secret you thought you could hide
This secret you thought you could keep
But did you ever think
That you were gonna die in your sleep
Secrets out
You’ve been caught
Run for the hills *******
For tonight you will be taught
The true meaning of “pain”
The true meaning of “despair”
Let us see
Now your tears I will wear

You can survive break ups
You can survive being beaten
You can survive death of others
You can survive despair
Through the blood, sweat, and tears
You've gotten through it all
But nothing can save her from herself.

Tell me you love me
Tell me you’ll never stray
Stop trying to run
You’ll never get away
Let me end it now
The pain and hurt gone
Let the killing begin
So we can be done
This pain will never end
But the killing has just began
Get ready to beg *****
As much as you ******* can

You need someone?
How should I know who you need?
Who do I need?
I need someone in my life…
How do I find that person?
If constant searching fails what are we told?
Let that person come to you.
But what if that person you need,
Your someone,
Is just like you?
Your soul mate?
What if he or she is searching just as hard as you?
But you can not find each other?
If you give up then they might give up too?
I need someone as bad as you…
I will never quit looking because if I quit…
She might quit to.
I will find her one day,
Come Hell or high water.
If she is found tomorrow or in years to come,
She will still be found.
You mustn’t give up hope.
Keep searching.
One day she will come…
I hope that day for me is rearing closer.
Because I need somebody.
I need someone.
I need to fill that hollow void…
I hope she doesn’t stop looking either…
I hope she is more hopeful than I..

What is confusion really?
If confusion is the act of being confused how do you know when you are?
When I see her I don’t think I’m confused I know the feelings are true.
But when we talk the confusion rears its head.
It isn’t an emotion?
Is it an object?
Sometimes it seems it is.
It only appears around certain people.
Around certain subjects.
You can’t be confused unless confusion is around you?
Writing this has only made me more confused about what confusion is?
Am I confusion?
Is she confusion?
Are these feelings deep down just nothing but teenage confusion?
How can I feel anymore if all she brings is never ending confusion?
This is just nothing but repetitive nonsense now?
But isn’t that what confusion always ends up being?
I guess it’s hard to answer the question,
What is confusion really?
Because it’s just to… well confusing.
Maybe it’s because she makes it that way?
I don’t know anymore.
I’m just to confused..

Has beauty ever looked you straight in the eye?
And told you that you weren’t enough
Spat in your face and put you down
If beauty is the image of perfection
Why should it be so hurtful?
Is perfection of the outside not equal perfection of the inside?
Why must you spend so much time looking for the one you believe is beauty?
Yet beauty always brings pain in reality
Why must those that are beautiful be the same as those that are harmful?
The search for beauty is the search for the wicked.
Those that are beautiful
Those that are not
Who am I to judge?
Who are you to judge?
I want to be beautiful but I do not want to be that
Beauty is within us all
But to true beauty
It is inside and out?
Or is it?
You be the judge
Or be the victim

Sickening thud as your face hits the dirt
You scream in terror as I claw at your back
I start ripping and tearing
Your screams fill the night air
I open you up and pull out your insides
Watching your eyes pour out of your skull
I find the shovel near your head and begin to dig
This trench in which you shall now lay
Shall forever be your final resting place
No body shall be left to find once I am done with you
Beg for mercy
But never get out
Your soul shall be forever trapped in your ****** dark hole

Have you ever stared beauty into its eyes
Begging for only it to be yours forever
She does that for me
She alone makes beauty weep with sadness
Valiant fighting for beauties soft lips
Is a forever longing battle
Thus it shall never happen during just ones lifetime
It must be fought for ages and ages
Only the soul of the beautiful knows its true path
You must be the one to change that path
I have stared beauty in the eyes
And just her eyes make beauty wish it was more
Beauty envies everything about her
Her magic lips
Her perfect hair
Her deep blue eyes which men could be lost in for days
As if fighting the high seas

Only beauty knows it is beautiful
Only beauty can let her know she is more beautiful than anything beauty has ever seen
I only wish beauty could let her know
Just how beautiful I think she is
Thus I fight on the fight
Whether it be for her or for beauty
I pray that one day
Beauty can scream her lungs from the sky
And Beauty’s name will forever more be her name which is true beauty