I awake from my slumber
And realize it’s that time again
A slight grin starts to form
As I make my way to the mirror
Slowly removing my clothes,
I pause
My grin is fading
Today is no better than yesterday
And tomorrow holds no promises
As more skin is revealed
More voices begin to shout
A sea of self doubts
Filled with salt that only
Increases the burn
A sea that lacks the vibrant fish
That once represented confidence
A sea that never stops flooding my thoughts
My every move
My every bite
I am submerged

remember how I used to write your last name
and imagine how it would look next to my first name
well now I am doing the same thing
only with someone far more wonderful
than you can ever hope to be
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