MEMORIES DON'T MEAN MUCH; THE PAST WAS GOOD BUT NOW...WHO GIVES A ****
UNFORTUNATELY IM LOST N CONFUSED; DONT GET "HEARTFELT" NOT OVER U.
I DONT MEAN 2 B HARSH BUT I'VE KEPT IT REAL N WEN I TELL THE TRUTH IM JUST
SAYN HOW I FEEL.
U WERE MI 1ST ON ALOT OF THINGS; BT I TOLD U HOW I FEEL BOUT MEMORIES
TEAR DROPS ..NO MORE LEFT TO CRY; "I LOVE U" "I NEED U" NOTHING BUT AN ALLABI
NOT SAYIN ITZ NOT TRU CUZ BOI IF I WAS U I'D MISS ME TO. THE POINT IS I FEEL SO
BAD B CUZ I DO LOVE U BUT WE CUD NEVER B AGAIN. FORGIVE BUT DONT FORGET
HW COULD I, OVER A BOY I NEVER CRIED.
BUT DATS IN THE PAST; ONLY THING 2 D0 NOW IS LAUGH; NEVER AGAIN; I MUST ADMIT; OPEN MYSELF UP N GET PLAYED LIKE A *****; IM STICKING 2 BREEZY
IM GLAD I MET U N DATS SUM REAL SHYT THO;
"WHAT I WANT; SHUD NEVER HURT THIS BAD"

When I wake up in the morning
Your the first thought in My mind
Looking at you Sometimes I feel lost in Time
I haven't loved someone in a very long time
But when I look at you My closed heart unwinds
I think about letting you in and Just the thought
helps my cracked heart to mend Love I once decided
I wouldnt be in again but What I feel for you Is becoming more
than a friend. Wanna know a secret I have actually thought about
Loving you and us being together and when I do turns My sad stormy
life into good weather. When we hug I feel tingly all over I love laying under you and holding you closed cuz baby you make me so happy but
aye im not tryna boast. But I feel your still hung up on on ur ex but baby let me help u forget about rest I can show u how ur supposed to
be treated not sum bootleg Love So let me in your heart and just have trust I know we can make it So lets see where we end up given lots of time maybe just maybe in Love

I dreamt of the perfect one
To love me when all hope is gone
To hold me when everything is bleak
To comfort me when I'm feeling weak
To kiss me when I'm feeling alone
To unlock feelings that are unknown

All along, He was there
Nobody else could compare
Mixed feelings rushing inside
Feelings that can't be denied
He said three words to melt my heart
Words that meant we couldn't be apart
Feelings reaching abnormality
Is this a dream, or reality?

I don't feel like writing but Ima write anyway so this stuff on the paper is really what I gottah say . Livin life anyway can't Portray who I'm not So Set your clocks Cuz I'm not gone stop Don't wanna hear tick-tock Looking at the block seeing nothing but the drug dealers make there stops sad to say I don't feel like writing  but ima write anyway LOoking at my face bet you can't see nothing but a smile n dimples on my cheek When really inside I feel so weak cuz something inside Something so deep needs to be released but I can't speak and so I write it on paper read it how you want and check ya thoughts later

A lot of people talk loud but they aint loud at all
Sideline chat but Hush when its time to ball
Im surprised at yall,
U can have a thousand nines,a thousand shines,rock with a thousand dimes,Be on B.E.T screens like a thousand times
But Weigh us up u an ounce against my pound
I gets down for mine
Gottah keep it moving cuz im all about progression
Step incorrect Meet My friends smith n wesson
Real eyes realize real lies
Not knowing the future Cuz i dont think about the past
GOing on 6 years N still My secret is Cast
UNface the Mask of a good guy he portrays
2 years out of my life I was nothing but his slave
Been moving on But when I think it still hurts
Not that much respect since I was treated like Dirt
Nothing but a youngin scared to talk
Back then I should have known it was never my fault
Too much information that im Blazing so I continue to be a
Prisoner of Words UNsed
they lock me with chains, So broken inside my head.....

Sometimes silence is the loudest noise For when I close my eyes sad things creep inside got me thinking bout my teenage Life Call me what u like an ignorant infidel time to tell the real truth yous speak about me but do you know what you do Living life a lie tears hidden behind your eyes I see straight threw you and what you claim to be only portray you more of a Fake to me Spittin nothing but the Truth Silence is the loudest noise. Like a drop of a dime in an echo room. Silence the deep quietness of reality when words are not heard due to their unorderly formality This life will speed by I remember getting high was who could swing the fastest Good ole days when Tears fell from my cheeks bcuz Best friends told jokes that were just 2 funny. Sometimes silence is the loudest noise

Feelings unknown are trapped in my mind. Love is the key that I have yet to find. Love I once knew left its mark n ashes so my heart feels buried like in a deep casket. I want sum1 2 find the true love I have 2 give not sum every other day bullshiddd.I locked down mi love 4 a very long time bt now I'm ready 2 give out mi heart I wanna find one of the good loves where nothing falls apart just thought I wud sayy sum words 4rm da heart.......

Life isn't easy, that i've made sure
I picture myself walking out that door
Graduation I await, not so patiently I must say
HiGh school is everything I expected it to be
And so much more. but im glad Im here no matter what has happened
im a teen,so sumtimes mi life is gonna be ******.
Heartbreaks so deep, I could have never imagined
But Still I stand strong because that's who I am
Sometimes I wanna break that stronghold and break down and cry
But I know I'm going to be okay,so I look to they sky
Life is really hard but I know i can deal with it
so I'm just gone chill and relax
Deep breaths inhaled day by day
not the clean kind, But hey I'm not perfect
...................

This What I Feel like
See I got this thing right..
Hold up, wait, let me think right
See I got this thing right
Where at times it seems like
Everything I do is wrong I cant even blink right
In such deep water I cant even see light
But I still fight, but **** I feel like
Ima be right back in the same **** boat if I chill right
Sinking again in the same **** water so Im still like
The only relaxing Im doing now is when a kneel like
Lord help me through these times, help me feel right
Cuz lord see what Im trying to do is take flight
So wait let me take a deep breathe ima breath right
Get my thoughts together and continue to write
Lol or should I say type
Cuz it seems like
It helps calm the stress in my **** life
So yea heres the deal right
Its hard when I wanna be on the other side and the doors are locked tight
Got all the keys I need, but cant find the right type
And I know when I get through that door the light is so bright
But how long will it take to get through it my entire life?
Sometimes I feel like its pointless, like Im started to lose sight
Its like the wind is blowing, but im flying a steel kite
Im going no where, like Im pedaling one of those gym bikes
I know yall know how I feel right
Oh I know what, ima go get a deal right
Get a record label and go make a mill..sike!
Reality sets in and Im like **** but this is real life
Not some mtv show, all the stars in the lime light
But I am bright, my head is on right
So u know what ima take that next flight
The one flying through success, and landing at happy life
So the next time I sit down to think, to write or type
Ima be off that **** stationary bike
And soaring to the sky, on my fly *** kite

Where do you find peace when your whole world is entrapped with pain
Every day feeling some new count of pain,
Where do you find the blessing when in  your family there is so much Stressin,Hatred and Pain. Who do I blame ?
Me.
Where do you find the honor when you feel as if your living a Lie when you cant stop the ocean overflowing in your eyes .
Where do you find yourself to be grateful when Life seems to take the very last of me and can destroy it,Livin my Life,Within the week. Where do you find Joy when depression has made a permanent hole in your soul When you feel as if Life seems like an perpetual journey of agony
Where do you find Hope when everything you've ever known is collasping and you can't help
I sit and weep Trying to keep the darkness out of me
Although it reaches to get out
I want to hold on!
but how ..
So i take a puff and breathe in deep
just for a little while I feel a Good Weak
But then it goes away and so I say Where do I find
Myself?